Hidden Love

~Love~

I stir from my light sleep as I hear the bathroom door open and close. Did I fall asleep? What time is it? I don't even look at the person who walked in but I pull up my phone. Five AM. "Hey." A raspy voice that I recognize says. "Hola..." I groan as I rub my head, my eyes red and puffy and tear streaks staining my cheeks. "I'm sorry about Olivia." Xandra says as she throws her dead cigarette butt in the trash. "It's fine..don't pity me please." I say as I stretch, my back aching from laying against a bathroom stall and also sitting on tile. 

"You're a good singer." Xandra breaks the silence after a few minutes of us just sitting on the bathroom floor. "Thanks..this isn't a permanent situation, I hope to go work as a therapist. If I went into therapy sooner maybe I could've helped her..." I whisper the last part, but of-course Xandra with her sharp hearing heard it. "Listen, you couldn't have helped it, it wasn't your fault." Xandra says as she stands up and goes to look in the mirror. Her finger ghosts over a hickey. "I know...I know." I say with a groan as I pull up the voicemail and play it again, listening closely. "Where'd she die?" I ask Xandra after the voicemail stopped. "She shot herself right infront of your fathers house." Xandra says, a slight chuckle coming out of both of us. "Real bitchy thing of her to do, but don't blame her." I say with a smile. "She always said she would die on his front yard just for the fun of it." I add on as I wipe a tear threatening to fall. "That's...a way to hold a grunge I guess." Xandra said with a smile. We talked like we have been friends for years, and ignored the slightly tense silence between us in between sentences. 

I groan as I force myself to stand up and I stumble over to where Xandra is and I look at the hickey. "Hm, that's a rough one." I say as I brush over it lightly. "I know...I told that scumbag to leave my neck alone." Xandra groans. "Wait a minute." I say with a smile as I walk out with the bathroom just to run to my bag and grab my makeup bag that I bring with me. I run back into the bathroom and walk up to her. "Where did you get that?!" Xandra asks, surprised. "I carry some with me..Yk, just in case. Plus my eyeliner needs a bit of a touch up." I say as I also look at myself. I grab my brush and concealer out of my bag and put some on the brush. "Interesting.." Xandra says with a smile. "This concealer, works wonders." I say as I apply some on her neck, the hickey going away quickly. "I'm gonna need some of this." Xandra says with a chuckle, looking at the hickey which is now covered.

I brush up my eyeliner before setting my bag down with my phone on the floor. "I remember your concerts you had for me and Olivia when you were seven." Xandra says with a smile as she leans against the wall. "I do too." I say with a smile. "I'm glad we met again." Xandra says with a smile as she avoids my eyes. "Me too...I kind of forgot your name and everything, I just had memories of you but your face just wasn't there.." I say as I fidget with my fingers. "You know..I missed you." Xandra says as she crosses her arms. That's never something I thought I would hear her say, but not gonna lie..I missed her too. A lot. "I missed your constant dirty jokes...I missed your personality...I missed..." Xandra seemed to cut herself off. "I missed you too...a lot." I say as I stand beside her and slowly lay my head on her shoulder after she went back to look in the mirror. Least to say, my stomach was literally churning. 

She quickly turned around and hugged me, her hands resting linked right above my waist. I stand there frozen for a few seconds until I rest my arms around her neck, her being a little bit taller than me. As I snuggle my neck into her shoulder, the familiar butterflies roamed my stomach, and that's when I knew.

I was still deeply in love with this woman.