The Chronicles of Jo-kiel

SIXTEEN: Jophiel

"Jophiel" an oddly familiar voice called out to me and I frowned, "Jophiel, you have to wake up" I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder and I grumbled as I shrugged the hand away. I don't want to wake up.

"Open your eyes, Jophiel" the voice came again, this time firmer and sterner, and I immediately snapped my eyes open. My brows furrowed together as I tried to recognize where I was, I trailed my eyes around my surrounding before they landed on the person that woke me up.

It took me a while to make out the face of the person due to the lack of proper light in the area, but the moment I did, all that happened a few hours ago flooded my mind and I immediately sprang up from my laying position.

I felt a sudden head rush at my abruptness and it took me a few moments to get myself together. The moment I did, I began looking around frantically for the person I was with a few minutes ago but he was nowhere to be found. Why? Why am I back here? There was no need for me to be back here. I was okay with Him, away from this world and all of its troubles. I did not need to be here.

"There is" the familiar small voice whispered and I shook my head firmly. There was absolutely no need for me to be back here. I want to be with Yeshua.
I have to be with Yeshua. "Yeshua is always with you" the voice assured me but I shook my head strongly, if I can't see him then he's not here.

I felt a strong hold on my shoulder and I immediately turned around to see Zadkiel staring at me with a frown. "Jophiel, are you okay?" He asked so tenderly and tears welled up in my eyes. I saw his eyes widen and he immediately pulled me closer to himself, "Please don't cry again, just tell me what's wrong"

"Yeshua" I breathed out and he raised both brows, "I want to remain with Yeshua! He saved me" I fisted my hands on his shirt and sobbed "I want to be with him, I do not want to be here! Take me to Yeshua!"

His eyes softened and the lines on his forehead relaxed as he gently pulled me into his arms. He softly patted my hair then placed a kiss on my forehead, and tears began trickling down my face. His embrace was warm, so warm it felt like home. It felt like I was held by Yeshua and I didn't want to let go.

I leaned even more into him and he tightened his hold on me, "It's fine, Jophiel. You might not be able to see him anymore, but he's here. He's with us. With you, Jophiel" he whispered into my ear and I sobbed. I couldn't see him, and it makes it so hard to believe he was here. It feels like everything would go wrong since I couldn't see him. But somehow, being held by Zadkiel made me feel as warm as I did when I was held by Yeshua.

I pressed myself further into Zadkiel's arms and he didn't hesitate to hold me as I sobbed into his shoulders. I don't know how long I stayed there but he never tried to shrug me off or move till I let go of him.

"Do you feel better now?" He asked as I slowly let go of him and I bobbed my head.

"Yes, thank you"

"Do you want to talk to me about what happened?" I immediately shook my head and he signed heavily, "That's fine, let's just sit here till you are ready to go" A small smile tugged up the corners of my lips and I gave him an appreciative nod before I laid my head on his shoulders again.

A comfortable silence surrounded us as the warm breeze brushed ever so lightly against our skin, and I found myself reminiscing on what happened not too long ago, but instead of dwelling on my thoughts about the dark cold room, I found myself thinking about the light I never noticed till I ran. Has it always been there? Have I always been so free?

I felt tears pooling in my eyes as I remembered what it felt like to be in Yeshua's embrace, I would do anything to hug him again. Anything to be with him, to have him receive me with open arms and talk to me, he was the peace I've been searching for and now I always want that peace with me.