The Chronicles of Jo-kiel

TWENTY FIVE: Zadkiel

"Don't shut me out, Zadkiel" I heard Him say as I turned my back on Jophiel and I sucked in a breath.

"Please, don't" I managed to voice out, despite the heaviness of my tongue. I didn't want to hear from him for now. It felt like something inside of me had died, but the heaviness I felt in my chest made it close to impossible to fully understand the emptiness I felt.

The rest of my walk to my last class was a long and mentally tiring one. I spent the entire walk, battling and trying to block off the intrusive thoughts that plagued my mind. I thought I'd won when I finally made it to my class and plopped down on my chair, but almost instantly I realized that I'd not even won a quarter of the battle.

Josephine and Gabriel walked into the class right after me, and they both wore a disappointed looks on their faces as they realized that just like in the morning, I had chosen a seat away from our normal sitting position. We held eye contact with each other for a while, before they slowly shook their head and walked away.

I sighed and faced the class. This was going to be a very long and tiring class.

And it was. My mind was too occupied to make space for what the professor was teaching. For the first time in my life, I couldn't comprehend what was being taught neither did I want to be in class.

The moment the class was over, I heaved a sigh of relief and immediately dashed out of the class. I thought of going to my dorm room and spending the rest of the day there, but the thought of being alone with my thoughts was scarier than anything that could happen if I stayed within the school premises. So I chose to walk to the student council office and spend the rest of the day distracting myself with the heavy workload.

"I sincerely wish Gabriel and Josephine would stay away today" I mumbled as I walked into the office, but I knew better than to have my hopes too high. With all that happened today and the fact they work here as well already makes it impossible for them to not be here, but at least I'll enjoy some peace before they come.

But that didn't happen. The moment I settled down and began reading through the pile of files on my desk, the front door creaked open and almost instantly I was filled with annoyance. "All I asked for was just some alone time and I can't even have that?" I mumbled under my breath and snapped the file shut.

I relaxed against the chair and crossed my arms over my chest, as I waited for them to come in and confront me with their questions. But it was only Josephine that walked in. She was a bit taken aback when she saw me and she chuckled nervously.

"Oh! Hi, President. I didn't know you'd be here" she said and stood up straight.

"I wasn't expecting you to come so early either, but that's fine. You came to complete your work I believe?"

"Yes, I have a few of the medical files to go through. I'd be done soon" she said and once I nodded, she walked off to her cabinet and I sighed.

I heaved another breath as I dragged my eyes away from her and tried to distract myself with the workload again, but her presence was disturbing even though she was barely making any noise. And the fact that her brother would soon come, since she was already here laid heavy on my heart and made me want to dip. But I don't trust them to be alone in this office anymore, who knows what they might do or find out.

My thoughts were still running round and round in circles when the door creaked open again and my breath hitched. I knew who exactly was walking into the room right now and I don't want to see even a glimpse of him.  I clenched my fists tightly and my body went rigid as the footsteps drew closer and closer.

"It's just Gabriel, Zadkiel. You don't have to be so tense" I glanced at Josephine and her jaw was clenched tightly as she stared at me.

The footsteps got closer and I dragged my eyes away from her to look at him. Once I laid eyes on him, it felt like the breath was knocked out of me and I gripped the edge of the table tightly as I stared at him, but his gaze was fixed on Josephine with a smirk etched on his face and I slowly turned my gaze to her.