Worshiper Of His Existence

Chapter # 26.2

Later time passed and I couldn't forget what he said. I always knew he would return to me but hearing it sounded delightful.

Cinzel and Prince eventually left as well and we were left alone once again.

The house was lively in their presence, with kids running around, enhancing the effervescence of this hollow place and this was the time I decided to ask him what Prince meant.

I was aware of my state, I knew my very soul lived with his name, the emotions of my beating flesh, the extent of my feelings.

He is my world but- does he feel the same for me?

He was sitting on the bed, using his phone, lost in his world as I slowly approached him.

"Nathaniel..."

My heart was thumping out of my chest, my hands were sweaty due to anticipation building my chest to hear his response.

Should I say it or not? How would he react? What would he say? What if-

That 'what if' will only enhance your misery, dammit, open this mouth!

"What?" He asked casually, glancing at me.

I came in front of him and bent on my knees, putting my hand on his lap, not removing his irresistible gems from mine.

"Zari?" He called me hesitantly.

Furrowing his eyebrows together but I took his hand in mine.

"Is... everything alright?" He asked again, unsure and tensed at my reaction.

"Nathaniel, Do you remember what you told me at our last meeting?" I asked softly.

Taking his hand in mine firmly, putting his phone back, distressed at my visage.

But these feelings were taking shelter in my heart for too long, I must release them now.

"What happened to you suddenly?" He asked nervously, unable to grasp what happened to me abruptly.

"Just answer, Nathaniel. Please." I insisted, swallowing hard, he nodded slowly, going along with my demand.

"I don't want you to be sad." He said what he told me that day.

Obviously, he remembered vaguely but that fact he remembered a small portion of it was enough.

Breaking the keen contact, I continued sorrowfully, "Then how did you become the person who hurts me the most?"

My voice cracked, urging me to comprehend what used to beat with his name now hurts with it.

Whatever we had was used to be beautiful, but my one mistake ruined it.

"Did I hurt you... that much?" He asked, distressed instantly

Placing his hand on my cheek, caressing my face as if I were a fragile doll and too much force would break me.

"You did,"

The anguish in my chest caused me to narrow my eyes and nod.

"By your constant distrust, with your painful talks, by stealing the faith I had in you, by labeling my emotions under the name of deception, you stole everything from me..."

Closing my eyes, a tear rolled which he wiped instantly, tightening my grip over him. Refusing to bury these talks in my heart anymore.

"Fuck my orders, fuck my duties, fuck everything. Listen to my voice, listen to me. Hear my emotions. I am a human, I am not a doll."

Desperation reached its peak when I released the pain collected in my chest, losing my breath and posture.

"Zari..."