I'll be there for you {CHARLES LECLERC, ENG}

Maman

Charles leclerc's point of view:

Monza is a lot op stress to be honest! All fans want me or Carlos to win. Ferrari is a Italian team so when we are in Italy it's important.

Everyone was over my head about monza '19 i mean yes u won and it is the best memory of f1 EVER!! But let's be honest! With this damn car this wont rehappen!

My mum is at this Grand Prix! I love my mum she is the best to me and my brothers who are also both here. Arthur almost always because of f2 ofcourse! Im so proud of him for making it so far even after not being able to kart at such a young age like me. Sadly we had to choose between me and him since it's a really expensive sport!

After all its worth it! Luckily

After fp1 - 2 -3 its time for qualifying now! Im rather sad Oaklynn was unable to make it. Maybe it would also been soon to meet my mom. But i obviously already met her parents. For other reasons!

"And thats q3 Charles p4, p4" i hear trough my radio as i drive back to the pits! Its q3 so its fine as long as i push as hard as i can in q1!

"P2 you can go to the pits now" i hear xavi say after q2 max fucking verstappen in the fucking red bull! Can't he like break his pinkie and not drive. Because i am better i have always been better then him. And i will win!

Its just that Ferrari is so behind on the car. In a car that is not as fast there are lots of mistakes to be made before you get it perfect and thats what problem i am having currently!

"P1, good job! P1 your have pole
Position!"

WHAT? FUCK YES!!!!

As i drove back to the pits i get out and hug my team behind the fence. So as my mom and brothers. I search for a second before i realised she isn't here. I so wished she was! I need her at every single race and in every single moment.

Her voice calms me. Her touch makes me feel comfortable. If i could drive for 2 i would want her with me. I would be calm and collected. I would drive much better and carefully since she would be there. I would want her to talk to me. I would win every single race. The most boring season it would be! I would be champion because od her but sadly this is all a scenario and she won't ever be racing with me.

"..charles? Intervieuw i said"

What no yes huh?

"Hi Charles congratulations on your pole! Everyone at home is probably so happy to see this! How did you manage with your tires?"

At home..? At home where my girlfriend is who couldn't watch but when she finds our i have pole she will probably jump into my arms trough a screen bec-

"Charles?"

Oh fuck

"Yes, uhm the tires was warming up since i had not driven on the soft that much only 5 laps before qualifying ofcourse. So it was a little of getting used to but i managed fine"

"You seems a little outside of the mind. Is this because of the results you showed?"

"No, just thinking"

About Oaklynn the girl who i love so much the girl who should have been here so i could kiss her right after my pole!

After a little they moved on to max who was second. And George Russell was in third.

"Charles we want to discuss something with you." A few media workers came to me.

"Yea sure in about 15 min okay?" I say because i have something i need to do before

"We can only discuss it now!"

"Okay shoot , please make it quick"

"Well it's about this. You keep forgetting that there is a massive social media padt were most people get through there are 10000 or rumours that we don't even know about when we should. And you seem to not care a single bit about any interview's also today it felt like you simply didn't give a shit. Yesterday you were al smiley in your thoughts after a certain call. "

Oaklynn i called Oaklynn after fp2 when she was at that dinner.

"You are doing it again Charles"

"So? I perform which is the goal and my job!"

I say before walking off. It's really not that I don't care it's just that i am still so soon in a relationship i should be able to feel like this with or without such a job or so much pressure from the outside.

(Writing this is English sorry)

"Charles" i hear someone say standing at the door. She is my mum i knew the second i heard it obviously.

"Yes maman"

"Did it go right?"

"Yes maman i got pole?"

"You know that that isn't what I'm talking about. You called me about the woman. It's noticeable that hou are currently in love with someone who you can't keep your mind of off"

How can she always tell?

"Its the same woman! It has been her since!"

"Oh i know my child! I know! It is Oaklynn silver. I know her."

"You do?"

"Yes her mom and i used to know each other. Very long ago when she was just born. She is a very dominant person her mother. She doesn't have that. You guys seem In love the way you look at each other and it seems like you think about her at every occasion you have!"

"Interesting."

"It so is my son. I hope she maked you happy and gets the best out of you. That you can't get her if your mind is a good thing i ha dit with your papa aswell!"

My papa..

I was back in my car to drive to the hotel and i had forgotten to do what i had planned after the talk to my mom.

So i did it in the car via carplay. Call Oaklynn

"Heeeeeeey charlie bear" she days as she picks up. Music in the back, lots of people.

"Where are you?"

"Straight to the point mr. Im at Elsa her party."

"Are you drunk?"

"No HAHAH." Just so you know. When Oaklynn is drunk snd you ssk her if she is she says no and if she is in fact sober sh always says ghat she is so drunk she can't walk. So it was clear to me ghat she had a drink or 30

"Who are you there with.?"

"20 girls and a few of their boyfriends i miss you Charlie i need you around me"

Her behaviour doesn't grow on me. I don't want her like this when i am not there.

"Yea well i need you to get someone to drive you home Mon Amour!"

"Nooooooo party pooper' i like drinking."

Why is she drinking this much? She normally has her ground laid. She doesn't right now which means something happend something bad.

"Oaklynn what happend."

"What?"
She is cracking i can feel it in her tone. The switch she made beteren the i like drinking and What?

"I asked you what happend?"

"Nothing."

"Oaklynn you answer me now. What happend?"

"My
Mom again"

I could have known!