I'll be there for you {CHARLES LECLERC, ENG}

Naked truth (🌶️)

(DISCLAIMER. This chapter contains REAL smut! As in the details of sex! 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ 😱😱😱😱😱😱 i did not write this myself i wish i could but kissing is as far as my imagination goes sadly. So my dear dear dear friend STACY wrote it please a big applause for her. Enjoy this 2700 word chapter!) 😱

Brutality honest...

It doesn't feel like we got back together at all!! And maybe it will take a day or so. But when i woke up with Charles his arms wrapped around me I couldn't but be in shock. The feeling wasn't familiar with me anymore and it didn't feel like love at all.

It didn't feel like anything to be honest. And i so wanted it to feel the same but it just didn't. I just stood up and decided to take a shower and right as i undressed i hear Charles wake up. And i know I shouldn't get a weird feeling and maybe j am overreacting but i also know that I didn't feel comfortable being naked at the point that he could walk in right now.

"Oaklynn are you in the bathroom?" I hear from the bedroom.

I feel this panic that just makes me feel sick. And i just get more panicked by the second. Ofcourse when your in a hurry things seem to go wrong. And can't clip my Bra I don't know why. And he can walk in at any moment he wants too.

Tears fall down my cheeks with the feeling of continues panic. Fucking hell why am i so panicked. And why can't i just do a thing that i have been doing since i was 13?

The realisation hit me that i have not answered his questions yet and that it gives him even more reasoning to walk in.

Still crying i see the sunlight shining trough the bottom of the door disappear as he gets to the door. My fear lets me to fully turn to the door in the hopes it wouldn't open.

AND WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING CLIP MY BRA?!!

I throw it to the floor and just grab a towel to cover me. At the same moment i threw my bra to the floor i let out a simple word.

"FUCK"

"Oaklynn?"

And boom the door is open before the towel has reached my body. He looks at me, seeing me cry. He takes a step forward but steps on as you might think.

My (FUCKING) bra

He looks at me another time. And i can see his eyes scanning down to my Breasts. Which is my sign too finally cover them up.

We stood there for i would say 30 seconds before the broke the very awkward silence.

"What is going on Oaklynn? Why didn't you answer.." he looks at me "and why are you crying?"

I stand there.

In my own thoughts.

Letting.Myself.Get.Eaten.By.My.
Own.Thoughts

And i have no idea what i should say. Because I can't tell him why I didn't answer or why i am crying. We would just break up AGAIN right after because the realisation would hit him a day after.

He is looking at me in complete silence. And im looking at the blue with white tiled floor. Looking at the little details. He is also probably looking at the little details of me. The same way I'm studying the tiles.

"Just tell me if you're okay?" He asks

I nod. I see the disappointment in his eyes that I didn't say it. This times it's him looking around the room while ik studying him.

Studying his green eyes which are so gripping. They take you everywhere you would like. Just look straight into them and they will find its way around you. His dimples which aren't very visible since he isn't smiling but once he is.. they make you attached to them. The only thing you want after seeing them is to see them again. So once he smiles you look at them again and again but don't forget those eyes because those sparkle and are glazed when eh is smiling taking you right where they want too. And his laugh. His upper lip forming the letter M when he smiles. His lips became smaller when he smiles to make room for his perfectly straight teeth. But only the top row. Because when he shows you the bottom row you know his smile is fake.