I'll be there for you {CHARLES LECLERC, ENG}

All over again

"Charles come on you can't just say that. I would never make you quit racing. Im not insane."

"Okay but please lets just go on a date. Or you can come over to our apartment? Please"

I was debating it. I shouldn't i really really really shouldn't do it. But its that lust in me that want him so so bad. I would do so much just so we can.

"You still have everything at the apartment except some clothes but even those i know you want to come back."

"Not today Charles I can't today."

"Tomorrow? Thursday? Friday? Whenever you want!"

"Don't you fly too Saudi tomorrow?"

"I do but i can fly back and forth to see you? Or you can join me? Please join me!"

"Charles people will think that we're still together if i show up."

"You really don't want to be seen with me huh?" He asks

I see him, i can see his eyes and his movements. I can see that he is serious about this.

"That's not it. It isn't even out that we broke up. People will think we are just the regular couple we are."

We are.

"We were i mean" i say to correct myself

"If you really don't want this Oaklynn then that's okay. I just want you to know that i love you and i will love you until the day i die. You can always come back to me no matter in what situation i am in. You are and will forever be the love of my life mon amour."

He says it with such dazzling eyes. And I can't but feel the need to say i want him.

He takes a step towards me now only 10 cms away from me. His faces gets closer and for some reason i was prepared to kiss him. I was ready to fall into his arms and make out.

"Tell me you don't want this and I'll believe you Oaklynn... you have to say it once and ill be gone"

He says at me with out noses almost touching. I can't i just can't say that I don't want this. Because i would be lying if i did

"Ill join you. But were are in separate rooms! And if i want to go back to Monaco i can!"

"Yes!! Ofcourse ill pick you up tomorrow!"
He screams in excitement'

"Ill see you tomorrow" he says right after.

"No you have to get me home first sir!" I say

And he does.

I feel sort of stupid for falling for it again. There is a reason i left him. And here i am agreeing to go to his race. How dumb can i be.

The following day i pack some clothes and have to explain to my dad that i am going to Charles his race. My dad looks at me as if he had just seen a ghost once i told him.

"But you guys broke up? Are you back together again?"

"No but i feel like we will be and im scared."

"I really like Charles. But if you don't want too you obviously don't have too. Goodluck sweetheart."

I get up as i hear my phone and see Charles calling.

"Hello Mon amour, im outside waiting for you."

"Ill be right there."

"Kika will be happy to see you."

Me and Kika have grown into very good friends over a short period of time. And i am pretty exited to see her at the race. And some of the others aswell.

So when i got into Charles his car I couldn't but be pretty exited to see them again.

Just as the car ride the flight went very well. And when we landed there were loads od fans waiting for all drivers who were arriving around this time. Since about a week there have been rumour of our break up since last week it was Bahrain and every single girlfriends was there. Not me but im not a girlfriend after all.

So when people saw me enjoying dinner in Italy with Romy people couldn't but think certain things. I have not posted any pictures or the two or us as i have also taken down a few post where he is in. People obviously notice bur since I didn't take EVERY picture down people had their thoughts on different things. Right now its Wednesday and its 6PM here in Saudi Arabia.

Charles went to sign stuff from fans while i stood behind him. Our of nowhere Pierre Gasly apreared and right there was Kiki who had just about a second ago spotted me.

"OMGGGG Oaklynnn!!!" She says speeding up her walk towards me. I give her a hug. And she stays so she can say something on my ear.

"I heard you guys break up? Was it not true?" She whispers in my ear. I let her go and decided to just talk a little more quiet.

"No we did, we still are but well its complicated I don't know if he want it back or just want to talk I'll see."

"Okay well let me know if you come to more races we can walk around the paddock together. OMG we should go lunching tomorrow when they have media duty?"

"Yes sure thats exiting. Maybe ill just have to go to the paddock and after that we could."

"Yea thats fine ill text you or maybe the boys want to a play date of breakfast just let me know!"

"Hahah i bet they would love that."

Charles waves over at me to come over so we can go to the hotel. And he grabs my waist which isn't a unfamiliar feeling. But i do flinch at the touch since it had faded from my memories.

He looks at me to see if i reacted to it in any way which I didn't i just kept walking.

Once in what i thought was his room he oust down his luggage.

"Okay lets go to yours." He says taking the second key he got and looking at the number.

"You have room 71 i thinks that one to the side." He says walking outside to the left. We both look around and for some reason the room doesn't exist.

"Charles, what number is your room?" I ask spotting the mistake he made in switching the keys.

He has now both keys in his hands and sees as i see that both say 71.

"I promise i said 1 bed PER room. And that we were with 2 people."

"Its fine we can share a room if you paid for it. But no getting close Charles" i say warning him of his love for physical touch and if I didn't i knew that the only this around me next morning was him.

He sat down on our from now on shared bed and made his way towards me. While i was sitting on the other side of the bed.

"We do have to talk Oaklynn."

"Okay talk you wanted me here."

"Oh okay, i just wanted to know here you are at because i still have feelings for you and i still love you with everything in my heart Oaks. I want you."

"Well i broke up with you because you just kept lying to me. And hou were super distant and we didn't talk or like have any moment in bed"

"If you want moment in bed Oaklynn you just have to say it."

WOW OKAY DAMN he is in his spicy pants today.

"I might but that's not what this is all about Charles. How are you distant when you want to propose? It just doesn't add up"

I knew he could read me like a book made for toddlers. He know i want him as well. And i know he is planning on making his move tonight but im not so sure yet.

"Its because i was nervous. I was scared or whatever. I just couldn't handle it. I just want to be your boyfriend and be with you for the rest of our life's."

"Okay, we'll get back together but if i ever feel like you are distant again or just some stupid shit it's done!!!!!!"

A smile grew on his face. It didn't help that i broke so fast because idle only add up on his ego. But if it's back to old old times just like when we just started dating then ill be happy.

Atleast i hope so. Im begging that i won't regret it.