My darkest desire

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Author's POV
BANG!!!
Pools of blood laid all around the body. The body of Kim's beloved, a body whom kim wanted to protect from his hell. The eyes which held kim's world were devoid of emotions looking in the abyss. As kim saw the scene unwind how his beloved was shot in front of his eyes and he couldn't do anything to protect the boy, he lost all his strength and collapsed on the ground and took the boy's body in his hands and shook him to search for any life, but none was left....
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Sweat..... All over Kim's body as he woke up from his horrors with the sound of his alarm. Another of his nightmares, visiting his nights way more frequently than one would like.

Kim's POV
Once again the same dream. Why? Since the day chay was kidnapped I started getting such dreams- each dream different from the previous but one thing in common,in every dream chay dies and me being useless can't even protect him. And since chay went to the states these dreams became way too frequent for my comfort that I can't even sleep anymore, I have to rely on stupid sleeping pills to just rest even for a few hours. How I wish I could see him once before he went, I wanted to but I was too late. After I confronted him that day for his interview I busied myself with my schoolwork and my father's dirty work, I know I don't want anything to do with this mafia business but I can't find an out plus it also made a good distraction. It kept me from running to chay and embracing him and marking him as mine. But I got so distracted that I stopped going to the main house and stopped keeping tabs on the family just to keep myself sane, I did get all the important information, just stopped getting involved in any of their personal lives. A month before chay's departure I was assigned to a mission, honestly it was a suicide mission as I had to do a lot of undercover work but I didn't mind. Due to which I couldn't keep any contact with my family. The day I came back to my condo, I was tired as hell and just wanted some rest but Kev(Kim's personal bodyguard) told me that today was chay's flight to the states, that he will be going there to study. I was shocked with the information that I received, why so suddenly he wanted to go and study abroad, what is wrong with the colleges here. Does he hate me this much that he needs to put so much of physical distance between us. But this is not the time to start thinking about this I need to meet him, at least once see his face before he goes and without any second thoughts I raced to the airport but I was late when I saw him entering the gate, his back towards me. Maybe it was for the best, if I met him I would not let him go surely I don't even know whether he would meet me or not, I mean he hates me, he hates my being from the core of his heart and I made him that way I took his innocence and crumbled his world. And I deserve being alone, for leaving him this is my punishment. I lost my music the day I lost my muse, so I stopped creating music and even stopped singing. The last song that I sang was for chay when I sent him the video. He never replied though and why would he, I crushed his innocent heart. I put him through the worst and for that hell won't also accept me. Now I am just a living piece of flesh whose soul is in the states.
(Saying out loud to himself in a defeated voice) It's already been 5 years chay, will you ever return, will you ever forgive your pkim, have you already forgotten about me and moved on .
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Maybe he has.
I got out of my thoughts as my phone rang, it was pol, now what does he want.

Pol: Khun kim chay has returned..............
(Silence was all that was heard)

Pol: Hello- khun kim hello..... Are you there?

Kim: When? When did he return? How is he? Where is he now?

Pol: He returned yesterday and he is great and he is here only.

Kim: AND WHY ARE YOU INFORMING ME TODAY! WERE THE FUCK WERE YOU YESTERDAY!

Pol: Sorry khun kim, it's just that nobody knew he was coming back he surprised everyone and it was so overwhelming yesterday I think everyone forgot to give you a call.

Sorry khun kim.

Kim: I am coming over.

Author's POV

Saying that Kim immediately cut the call and took his black leather jacket and keys to his buggati and went to the main mansion.

As Kim entered the mansion he saw the boy more like the man whom he craved, whose face was his personal sanctuary. He just froze on his spot being too stunned to speak as chay had changed a lot. He has grown so much over the years, he has gotten a great body. He always had a great body but now it is all buffed up. Still,he looks as ethereal as ever, but his eyes, they contained no emotion, they lacked empathy. They looked just like kim's eyes. But still it's chay- his chay. The ever so sweet, delicate and heavenly chay. Just a glance that chay gave to him and then without giving him even a second look passed kim and walked towards the exit. That is when Kim snapped out of his trance, looked back and called tenderly...

Kim: Chay..........