My darkest desire

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Author's POV
Chay shrunk to the ground on the other side of his room's door. Clutching his heart for his dear life. Trying to draw deep breaths to calm himself down. Each and every word that kim said to him running through his brain non stop like a train. Chay couldn't digest that his phi loved him back. The person he loved even more than himself, who tore his heart to pieces but still poor little chay couldn't get him out of his heart. That person also loved chay. He was angry, confused, tired, sad and hella emotional. What was he supposed to do, forget everything and hug kim to his dear life and forgive him for all the sins that he did. Or should he get revenge so that kim also gets to know how it feels to be on the receiving end. Or should he just ignore the older's existence and move on.

Chay's POV
(Sarcastically) Move on.. huh ... As if for so many years I was just joking. I tried to move on from that asshole but nothing helped. What changes now that you can easily move on. One thing did change, now I have a clear answer he does love me, or at least claims to. I am not the old naive chay who will go running to him just cause he said three stupid words. NO! I am better than that. He will now know who the real Porchay Kittisawasd is. I will make him regret all the fucked up things that he had me endure just to satisfy his fucking ego. He will have to come and grovel at my feet if he wants my forgiveness and I will make sure of it. Just wait and watch Kimhan Theerapanyakul, I will destroy your life and you won't even see it coming.
(Saying that, tired chay got up and slipped under the cover to rest his body).

Kim's POV
I broke him. H-he loved me with everything he had and I broke him. He is right I am dumb. He is a part of this mess regardless of whether we are together or not. He will always be in danger because of his brother. Why did I let him go, should've been there for him. But what did he mean when he said that he had to endure shit.Did something happen when he was in the states.

Author's POV
Kim straight away went to one person who has all the information regarding everything that goes in this family. Chan the head of bodyguards. Surely he must know whether something happened there. But what chan said was not something that kim was expecting nor did he imagine that his little chay endured so much?

Flashback
When chay was in his 3rd year of University, he was doing quite well for himself. He has started getting quite a lot of singing gigs plus he has finally started producing his own music. Life seriously felt good. One day when chay went to his condo he found kinn a little drenched in blood. Chay got worried and hurriedly went to his side and asked what had happened. Chay got to know that one of the biggest cartels of Mexico The Sinaloa Cartel run by Ismael Zambada García has also established one of their headquarters in new York. They are giving trouble to the main family's business here and are also trying to overthrow Theerapanyakul's power in New York. Due to which kinn had come here but was ambushed during the meeting. But was able to get out almost unharmed but sadly Porsche had taken a lot of hits due to which he was hospitalized and was currently unconscious. This was unacceptable to chay and this got his blood boiling. He asked kinn to take him in on this mission he needed to be a part of this mission for his hia. Although Kinn was very reluctant, he knew that chay had come a long way. Chay has gotten rigorous training everyday for the last three years and now is one of the best fighters he has seen, chay now is almost as good as Porsche but Chay has surpassed Porsche in shooting. Handling a gun came natural to chay. As it was his calling beside music. No one can beat chay in shooting not even kinn himself, to which kinn was a little envious but still very proud by seeing his tremendous progress. So finally he agreed and both chay and kinn started planning on how to infiltrate Ismael's hood. It was a very big mission with a lot of casualties but both chay and kinn were able to burn the whole place down and shut their works, and come out unharmed. But to their dismay Ismael was able to escape but still his business did take a huge hit. This mission was kept under the covers from Porsche cause if he got to know that his baby brother was involved in such works surely kinn would die from his lover's hand.

Ismael knew who Porchay was. He kept an eagle's eye on chay's every move. He knew that he was a very crucial part of the Theerapanyakul family who lived alone in New York with very little protection. And when he got the chance he kidnapped chay. He tortured him for information on the Theerapanyakuls. They wipped him mercilessly while being bound to the ceiling, cut is skin again and again till he was covered in blood and didn't even let it heal before they did it again. Made him sleep on ice without clothes. Gave him little electric shocks. And did a lot more unspoken shit to poor little Porchay. (Cruelty even got humbled by seeing Chay's state.) This went on for almost a month before Kinn was finally able to track chay down and rescue him. This took a huge toll on Porchay's mental health as well as physical health. He was hospitalized for a long time and even had to go to therapy to get stabilized. This incident was all kept under the wraps as Porchay was adamant that his hia should not get to know any of chay's involvement in all this no matter what. This was established between kinn and chay before their mission that no matter what Porsche should never get to know about this. This is why when Chay was abducted Kinn turned New York upside down to track Chay but still secretly without even giving a little sound of this turmoil to his lover.