YouTuber One-Shots

The Fight

Main Characters- Mark and Ethan

Warnings- Anger, Angst, Talk about past suicidal thoughts, Suicide.

Ethan's POV

I have been struggling with depression for a few years then I moved in with Mark to become his editor and things have been getting better and soon me and Mark actually started dating. My first suicide attempt was on this day two years ago. I went down to the kitchen to start making breakfast for me and Mark then I smile seeing him come down the stairs but my smile soon fades when I see he looks angry "Mark are you ok?" He didn't answer me as he walks over to the cabinet taking a coffee mug from it and setting it on the counter "Mark?.." he sighs and slams the mug down on the counter a little to hard making it shatter to pieces. I jump backwards in fear completely abandoning the food on the stove. "God Ethan can you just shut up for five seconds?!" I went silent as tears started to form "M-mark wha-" he turned to me and seemed angry "You forgot to post that video this morning and now it's going to be late! You can't do anything right Ethan I wish you would have jumped!" He screamed at me and I felt my heart shatter and I could no longer hold back the tears "What did you say to me?..." I could barley see his face through the tears but he seemed upset now "Babe- you know I didn't mean it-" he tries to come closer and hold me and I stop him "No. you did or you wouldn't have said it. Maybe your right, maybe I should have jumped so you wouldn't have to take on a charity case like me." I said through tears as I run up to the bedroom and lock the door. Little did Mark know I wouldn't be coming back out.

Marks POV

I woke up and heard my phone go off looking to see Ethan hadn't posted that video yet "Damn it." I hear slight noises in the kitchen so I go downstairs to see Ethan making breakfast for us but I'm to upset to care right now. I hear him ask me what's wrong but I ignore him because I am upset and have a headache and as much as I love him I just wanted quiet. I get a mug out of the cabinet and I hear him say my name but I slam the mug down a little to hard and it shatters. "God Ethan can you just shut up for five seconds?!" I hear it get silent behind me. "M-mark wha-" I turn to face him my fist clenched at my side "You forgot to post that video this morning and now it's going to be late! You can't do anything right Ethan I wish you would have jumped!" As soon as the words left my mouth I knew I fucked up as I see the tears start to fall from his eyes my heart breaks "What did you say to me?..."I tear up as well when I speak "Babe- you know I didn't mean it" I try to walk to him just to hold him close to me and apologize but he stops me. "No you did. Or you wouldn't have said it. Maybe your right, maybe I should have jumped so you wouldn't have to take on a charity case like me." Before I could say anything I see him sprint to the bedroom. I sigh and close my eyes "Mark you fucked up.." I turn off the stove and remove the burnt food from the pan, I was going to give Ethan a few minutes to calm down then go talk to him but about 6 minutes later I remembered that his blades were still in the bedroom "No... no no no!" I sprint up the stairs to the bedroom and open the door and I don't see him but I see a note. Then I hear water running in the bathroom and I open the door to the most heartbreaking scene. Ethan, the boy I love bled to death in our bathtub. "No! Ethan no!" I call 911 and pull him out of the tub turning off the water as I try to stop the blood that was flowing "Please Ethan! I love you! You can't leave me please!" I cry as I hold his lifeless body in my arms not caring about the blood soon to cover me. "Ethan I'm so sorry" I say between sobs as I push some hair back from his eyes. The paramedics get here and announce him DOA. They don't ask me any questions and they leave with him. My best friend. My boyfriend. He's gone and it's my fault. I walk back to the bedroom and pick up the note reading it with tears in my eyes.

"Dear Mark, by the time you read this hopefully I will be dead. It was two years on this day that you stopped me from jumping off that bridge. I don't know if you felt pitty for me and that's why you took me in or what was going on but I'm sorry I was such a burden. I love you Mark, you were my best friend. But today of all days you said that to me and I was done. I was done being that charity case everyone says I am. Also that video I forgot to post? It was scheduled wrong. You had it scheduled to post at 1 instead of 12. So it should be up soon after you finish reading this. I'm sorry about the mess in the bathroom but I hope you can move on without me since others seem to have done so quickly.
Love Ethan"

By the time I finished reading the note I was having a break down 'I blamed him for my mistake and then I told him he should have killed himself. What the fuck is wrong with me!' I fall to my knees and hold the note close to me "Im so sorry Ethan..I know you can't hear me right now but..you were never ever a charity case to me..I loved- no love you so so much. I don't know what I'm going to do without you in my life Ethan.."