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#8 Apologize

After the prank gone wrong Sirius tries his hardest to apologize to Remus and make up for his mistake. One day Remus finally responds but Sirius instead hears his fathers voice and flees in fear, Remus being unaware of the situation he had unintentionally just caused.

Idea: @Zeleniaxhcdl

It had been weeks since the prank and Sirius had still not forgiven himself, and it was clear Remus had not forgiven him either. Tension lingered between the Marauders and none of the boys had been speaking to each other like they used to.

Sirius followed Remus into the common room one day, determined to get Remus' attention and find a way to make it up to him but Remus wanted nothing to do with Sirius anymore, he was too angry, afraid.

Sirius called out to Remus one last time and Remus finally turned around, Remus growled deeply, watching as Sirius took a step back from him, the anger inside him dominating his usually calm presence,

"Sirius enough. You've done enough. If you knew what was good for you, you'd leave me the fuck alone" his voice was void of any emotion he'd usually show towards Sirius, all the weight on his shoulders coming off as he stood back his eyes red and his chest puffing, his arms raised in the air.

Sirius' body went stiff and a tearful glaze covered his eyes, for a split second he didn't see Remus, all he saw was his father's cold, dead eyes. Sirius ducked and curled up onto the ground out of instinct, covering his face with his hands, flinching at Remus' words as he watched Remus' hand come down.

When Remus finally caught his breath and looked back he paused in confusion, staring at Sirius' arms which were shielding his face. Remus went to reach out to him gently but Sirius pushed him away, not in anger but in fear, and then he ran, leaving Remus standing in the common room alone.

Sirius kept running, he needed to find Regulus, he needed to find his brother. He ran down the stairs to the Slytherin common room banging on the door until another student finally opened it, Sirius ran in and made eye contact with Barty who took one look at him, "he's upstairs"

Sirius nodded and shot up the stairway, throwing open the dorm door to see Regulus sitting with another student, Regulus looked at Sirius confused,

"Sirius?"

"Out" he pointed to the student who surrendered and left the room quickly, muttering something about Sirius as he left.

"Sirius, what's going on?"

Sweat dripped off Sirius' face and Regulus went quiet, simply holding him in his arms as he felt Sirius' heartbeat race and his chest rise and fall in deep, fast motions. Sirius tried to speak but no words came out, he had never meant to hurt Remus, it was in the heat of the moment and Sirius didn't give himself time to think before he acted, something he now realized he did often.

"Hey Sirius, can you talk to me?" Regulus sat on the floor, still holding Sirius' hands who sat straight after having buried himself into Regulus' chest.

"I upset Remus, I did something I shouldn't have and he yelled at me but- Regulus I saw him! I heard his voice! Father took him, he took my Moony!" Sirius started shaking again and Regulus rubbed his back as he realised what had happened.

Due to the excessive amounts of trauma their parents had given them, there were certain things that triggered Sirius into a panic attack. Sometimes, like now, it would come out in a breakdown and sometimes it would show itself in an outburst of anger, Regulus was at least glad he come to him in tears and not blood.

Regulus called for Dorcas, someone who was at least familiar with Sirius, and told her to stay with him while he left for Gryffindor tower. Dorcas gave Sirius a hug and sat with him on the floor, singing slow songs as she pat his hair and he closed his eyes.

Regulus flung open the portrait and with his wand drawn stormed through to the dorms, he opened the door about to shout, then he saw Remus sitting on Sirius' bed, digging his nails into his palms and ripping at his hair, he was spiraling just as much as Sirius was.

Remus suddenly turned and stared at Regulus, looking down at Regulus' wand and then up to his face. Regulus looked at him coldly, rolling one of his rings as Remus looked at him with red eyes.

"I don't care what Sirius did to you. I don't care what petty fight you two have gotten into again. With that being said, your days are numbered Remus if you ever speak to him like that again." Regulus would've yelled, he would've screamed and had his wand to Remus' throat but he looked at Remus' scared eyes and knew it had been unintentional,

"He was scared of me..." Remus' eyes turned into a blank stare as his hands twitched and his knee began to shake.

Regulus put his wand away, "he didn't hear you" Regulus paused and looked down at his wrists which had scars from the chains his parents had put him in, "all he heard was his father".

Regulus let that sink in as Remus' eyes widened, he stared at Regulus who stayed silent, "what have I done?"

Remus shoved past Regulus who followed behind him as they made their way back to the Slytherin common rooms, Remus looked around confused, he didn't visit the Slytherin common room and didn't know where to go until he heard Sirius' voice.

Remus followed the voice until he reached a bedroom where he opened the door and stood over Sirius who was laying down with Dorcas, Sirius stared back at Remus still with the trembling face of a scared child.

Remus dropped to his knees and slowly reached out to Sirius who collapsed into his arms. Remus held him tightly and repeated an apology into Sirius' ear, he kept Sirius to his chest and watched as Dorcas and Regulus left the room.

Remus held Sirius' face and smiled through a tear, "you never meant to hurt me, I never meant to harm you. I've been so blinded by fear these last weeks i didn't seen the damage I was causing"

"I never meant for it to be like this, I never wanted it to happen to you and I'm so sorry it did. I wasn't myself in the moment and you have every right to be mad at me"

Remus sighed, "I'd tell you to learn to think before you speak, but we both know that's not going to happen" he held Sirius chin up and watched as Sirius began to smile,

"You know me so well"

"I love you Sirius, I love you so much more than you could ever know"

Remus looked out the window at the faint lining of the full moon which stayed high in the sky, covered by clouds. Sirius noticed he was staring and brought him down into another hug, kissing him and burying his head into Remus' chest, letting his heart beat, which had returned to a steady rhythm, guide his breathing.

"Love you to the moon and back"

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