critical scars on beautiful veins // tyler joseph

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|| song for the chapter: madelyn - the wonder years ||

"madelyn, i share your hate for this world we're in, but it makes me a better man. it's an excuse that you make. madelyn, i know you want to let the bottles in. i know you think that they're all your friends. they're lying straight to your face. i know about the devil in your bloodstream. i know that the ghosts still visit nightly."

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[ madelyn's p.o.v.]

"tyler? please speak to me." i pleaded. no reaction came from him. i just stated at the thin body shake in front of me. this is the man that i hated yesterday morning, and here i was begging for him to talk to me. all i wanted was something to reassure me. all i wanted to hear was something like 'it was the cat' or anything along the lines of him telling me that it wasn't self inflicted.

"i'm so sorry, madelyn." tyler said, he chocked on own words. i was basically in hysterics by this point. i knew tyler and i weren't really friends but that doesn't mean that i can't care about him. he's a person, he has feelings, he deserves to be happy.

in this midsts of my sobbing, i just walked over to tyler wand wrapped my arms around him. i let my tears soak his shirt, he was doing the same thing to mine. at this very moment nothing else really mattered to me, the only thing that i wanted to focus on was this broken boy.

"tyler i know you think that i probably don't care, but i do. we may not have gotten off at the best start but i have enough to common sense to know that everyone deserves to be happy, regardless of my past with them. i know what it's life to feel absolutely trapped in your own mine and i get that feeling where you've lost all hope and you don't know what else to do. i've been to that breaking point, where it feels like the only option is to take it out on yourself. it hurts a lot. i may seem like a cold hearted bitch, but i have emotions too. anyways, these feelings suck. but you're never alone. you may think that you don't matter and that you play an insignificant role in the grand scheme of things, but you don't. you're changing people's lives, this moment right now is a moment i won't forget. you just changed my life and left an impact on me. that's some powerful ass shit. tyler joseph, its hard to say this but i care about you and i want to help you get better because this world would be shit without someone like you."

tyler let out a faint laugh, "aw, madelyn has a soft side. how cute. but in all seriousness, it means a lot to hear that. especially coming from you. thank you so much." and with that he kissed the top of my forehead. he was around a foot taller than me. usually i would've puked at the thought of tyler's lips touching any part of me but given the occasion i decided to let it slip.

"i'm afraid to leave you alone." i confessed. i had other things that i needed to get done. i had essays to write, exams to prepare for, food to eat, and all the other fun things that come with college. but i couldn't leave tyler. what if he hurts himself again? the thought of anyone hurting this much hurts my heart.

"stay the night." tyler muttered into my ears. i still had my arms wrapped tightly around him.

"what if josh comes home?" i asked. tyler tensed up for a bit.

"he never does. stay with me please." tyler pleaded. i nodded, i was happy to stay with him for right now. he could use the company since his roommate seems to never be home to help him. i honestly didn't really like josh, he was attractive and all but he was also a total fuck boy. the reason we broke up is because i caught him cheating on me. i didn't want him to come home because it would make me puke and it would make tyler uncomfortable and jealous.

"what time is it?" i asked.

"it's only like four. you can borrow some clothes, we're gunna rent a movie and order some pizza wether you like it or not." before i could say anything back to tyler he jogged over to a desk and pulled out a shirt and some sweatpants,

"wear these." he said. i nodded and headed to his bathroom. i closed the door, and made sure it was locked. i took off my brandy melville skirt and neck deep t-shirt and quickly replaced it with tyler's black sweatpants and oversized new found glory shirt. tyler was fairly skinny, and in all honesty so was i. but he was way taller than me which resulted in the clothes being pretty baggy, i didn't mind. i liked the way tyler's clothes felt on me. after i washed away all the smudged makeup and fixed my hair i went back to his room.

"holy shit." tyler said as soon as i walked out. i didn't say anything, i just stared at him with a concerned look on my face.

"you look really cute in my clothes, you're beautiful without makeup, and i've never seen your hair like this." tyler told me. my faced turned a light shade of pink and i turned away in hopes that tyler didn't notice my blushing.

"i saw that. you're also cute when you blush." tyler said, my face became a darker shade of red.

"shut up." i told him with a laugh. he joined in too.

"come on, you know you love me." tyler teased. i stuck my tongue out at him and ran to his couch.

"i do not." i said as i jokingly crossed my arms. tyler plopped right now next to me.

"lies." he muttered.

"truths." i replied. tyler starting laughing again.

"prove it." he said with a smirk. i smiled before i slapped him,

"why'd you do that?" he asked. i was hysterically laughing by now.

"because you told me to prove that i didn't love you, what else was i supposed to do?" i said trying control my laughter.

"rude man, not cool." tyler whined.

"aw, is joseph upset?" i teased. tyler nodded, "how about i make it better?" i asked. tyler nodded again.

without saying anything i grabbed tyler's face and put my lips on his. at first he seem startled, but he quickly kissed back. our lips moved in sync for a couple of seconds, it became more passionate by the second. we took a break to breathe. tyler sat in front of me, he was out of breath. he looked shocked, yet happy. in all honesty i was happy too. i didn't think i would ever develop feelings for tyler. twenty four hours ago i hated his guts. but that kiss sent electricity flying through me and i never wanted it to end. i wanted more. i never thought that i would feel this way, but it was a feeling i didn't regret.