𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗜 𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗧. a true story

⁀➷ 6O- JOSHUA

-𝐌𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲-

12 / 16 / 22 — FRIDAY 

I avoided Joshua for the rest of the week. It was mostly because I was scared. I didn't know how I felt about him, and to think about facing that confrontation before I figured out how I felt about it all myself... that was what scared me.

It was around 6 pm when I received a call from him.

A FaceTime call.

"H-hello?" I answered, hiding my face from the camera.

"What's been up with you lately?" Josh asked uneasily. "You're avoiding me, you won't talk to me- you won't even look at me in the eyes. Are you feeling okay? Did I do something wrong?"

"It's nothing."

"I need to see your face when you say that."

I placed my phone against the window so that I was in clear view. It was the first time I'd actually looked into his eyes, and I could see the genuine hurt and worry in them.

"It's just..." I looked around, trying to stall.

Oh fuck it. 

"Tristan told me something," I mumbled.

"Hm? What'd he tell you?"

I shook my head. "Never mind."

"Did he say I like you?"

I was taken aback, surprised he said it so bluntly with a straight face.

"Um, y-yeah. Is it... true?"

He shrugged, looking away and spinning around in his chair. "Maybe it is."

"It's a yes or no question, Josh."

"Yeah. Yeah, it's true. I do," he said briskly, not looking at me.

I smiled softly.

"What?"

"Maybe I kind of, sort of like you too," I murmured softly.

Josh's face broke out into a grin. "Actually?"

I covered my face in embarrassment. "Yeah, actually."

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I was extremely giddy and happy for the next few days. Our flirtatiousness at church did not go unnoticed, and I could Jae seemed a bit uncomfortable about it. Josh asked me to be his girlfriend on Monday, when we went back to school. Holding hands was how he always showed me his affection, as well as buying me small, random gifts to let me know he was thinking of me. Things went well, and we dated for 3 months, until our relationship began to deteriorate and we both decided that we would be better off as friends. During the third week of February ( 2.15.23 ), we broke up.

Joshua definitely had a big impact on me, for it was my first time dating someone so different compared to me.

And that was how another relationship of mine ended. 

sorry im ending it so shortly without going into all the details... i just really really don't want to talk about him in here anymore, but if you guys have any questions just lmk & i'll be happy to answer them. talking about him is just .. a sensitive topic for me. its not anything bad, i mean, he's my ex and all, so iykyk what i mean. ily guys mwah ♡

-emmie