Come find me | Luke Hemmings

Thirteen: Can't say I'm sorry

We left the beach and went to the grocery store then back home. I feel like something will go terribly wrong because we're so fine and its all good.

"Alaska? Can you open the door? I'm growing roots here" Luke says rolling his eyes. I got distracted by my thoughts and forgot to open the front door.

We enter in the living room and Mike is playing video games alone. I wonder how he and Cal always get into my home.

"Hi Mikey" I say smiling. Luke goes straight to the kitchen

"Hey Little One" he says without looking me "Hi mate" he says when Luke sits next to him

"Where're Ash and Tay?" It doesn't seem they're here

"They went out to buy some food and Tay wants you to check the voice messages"

I sit next to Luke and he lies his hand on my thigh and I lean to the phone pressing the red button of the voice messages

"Hi princess, its Mommy" I hear my mom's voice and my heart freezes "I just landed in LA and will take a cab to your place, sorry I didn't tell you I was coming but I knew you wouldn't let me" she says quickly and I can't breathe "See you soon my love!"

The phone slides through my hand and hits the floor. Luke glances at me to see if I'm okay. She must be almost here.

"My mom is coming here" I say feeling numb.

Don't get me wrong, I love my Mom but I can't see her right now. Just now when I feel okay again and things are going well. Actually I'm afraid she might say what I've been hiding.

"Yeah, what's wrong with that?" Luke says "I love when my mum comes to visit me"

"She must be almost here, let's go" I say standing up and turning the tv off

"Hey! Don't do that!" Mike snaps

"Get up you two!" I can feel my hands shaking "I have to organize this place! Now!" I snap and they get up

"It'll be fine, babe" Luke kisses my forehead, I see Mike looking away

"No it won't!" I say organizing the kitchen

"I'm gonna find Calum, maybe we'll se each other later. Bye guys" Mike says rushing out the door

"Luke you should go too" I say standing next to him

"Why? We're friends" he touches my cheek "Besides, moms love me" he smiles

I feel nervous and anxious about this. I take the OCD pils and count 8 of them to throw away because that's the amount of pils I didn't take this week. Just in case Mom checks them.

"Alaska you're shaking, come here" Luke holds me by my shoulder but I'm not okay.

"She's coming Luke" I say with my face pressed against his chest

"What are you afraid of?" He mutters against my skin

"I'm afraid I might crack" I'm drunk by his smell, and I love it "Just now that I'm finally fine and up on my feet again. I can't have her around to remind me of what I used to be"

"Just push these thoughts aside" he keeps me glued to him, I wrap my arms around his waist "Focus on having your mum around because you miss her" Sweet Luke warms my heart

A knock on the door makes my body freeze, its Mother. I breathe deep and smile at him, he presses his lips quickly against mine and gives me a thumbs up. I walk to the door and open to see my mom with her usual classic navy blue dress and high heels.