Come find me | Luke Hemmings

Fifteen: What?

Luke's POV

"I'm falling for you!" Her tiny mouth shouts such words and immediately hide her face with her hands, she's crying. Great.

How the hell this happen? This week has been fun and games and now she comes with "love"? Her voice stuck in my mind playing on repeat, I can't think straight. I just pick up my shoes and jacket, I would take my shirt but I have no ideia where I threw it.

I close her bedroom's door and look to the empty living room. How did we end up here? She can't be possibly in love with me, she just can't.

I enter Taylor's room and sit at her bed. I would rush back to the dorm but Ashton and Taylor are there, they could at least spend more time here or go to a motel for fucksakes. My hands drop my things on the floor and I take my pants off to sleep. I have zero conditions to think about this now.

Everything is just a huge mess. Megan wasn't contempt with only one date and seems to be more interested in me which could be really good to the band, my grades at uni aren't good because I haven't attended to class lately, Mike is all weird and I know he has feelings for Alaska because he told me, and now to complete the satan's trifeta Alaska is acting all moody and theres this love shit.

Now things will get even more complicated because I just ran out of her room. I fucking hate this. Now that we were getting along so well, I don't want to be without her but I don't want love. Yeah, I like when we talk and obviously when we have sex but "dating" takes too much effort and I can't have that now.

I press my head against the pillow and shut my eyes close. I can't deal with this right now.

My phone buzzes next to me and my heart acts funny, I know it isn't her. I take it and slide to unblock the screen, its Megan. I roll my eyes and read her text.

*Wanna come over?*

This girl will be a pain in my ass. I turn my phone off without answering her text, its fucking 4 in the morning and I have to be up in a few hours so when Alaska wakes up I'm long gone.

Just like I expected, I couldn't get much sleep and left the flat around 7am. I saw Alaska sleeping through the crack of the door, the place around her eyes were a bit red, she must've been crying. We know each other for a bit more than a month and I've made her cry more than I've cried in 20 years.

She shouldn't be this fucked up. I know I'm pretty fucked up myself but I wasn't expecting this from her. I expected her to have her shit together and things like that. Not that I've let myself fool by the nerdy and boring look, I know she's more than that.

I leave her apartment and thank goodness I always have clothes in my truck and drive all the way to Karev's laundry place. I should quit this life but now seems a perfect moment to forget about things. I was the first one to meet Karev, quickly gained his trust and he provided supplies for me and my mates. We never had trouble because I always payed him on the right date, but he's been a bit angry at me because of Calum. I'll figure something out.

I park my car outside the crappy building and walk in asking for him.

"Hemmings" Karev smiles and shakes my hand "You look like some girl gave you a bad blow job" he says and I laugh

"You got one thing right, it involves a girl" I say sitting on a table and he sits in front of me. Usually his haund dogs would be around the room but they're not. Karev is a cool guy, and its actually pretty easy to deal with him, you keep your thing and he keeps his. Has been working so far.

"I see" he lights up a cigarette and offers me another one, I take it "Let me guess: Its that girl that the asian one brought here the other day?" He drags his smoke and smiles "She's very pretty. Seems a little bit troubled but very pretty"