A Kim Namjoon × Y/N (Reader) FF
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"Why me?" She asked.
"What do you mean baby?" I asked back.
"Joonie, why me out of all the amazing girls you could choose from?" She repeated herself, this time clearly.
"Cause darlin...
Where on one hand you weren't able to quite put a finger on what's wrong with Namjoon, on the other hand at the Bangtan Dorm, all of them were sitting there looking at Namjoon for an explanation.
None of them had any idea why their leader was acting this way. He was never a person to ignore someone, even if that someone is a person who's hurt him deeply. So it was quite confusing for them to understand what's going on.
And then there was Suga who was sitting there thinking of what you told him. He was thinking of how all this truly effected you. Your words kept replying in his head.
He thought of telling them everything 'cause it was only right for them to know, but then he decided that it'd be better off coming from your mouth. So he decided to just tell them the last part.
"Y/n said she was sorry." He said breaking the silence that was surrounding the 7 boys.
"For what Hyung? She has nothing to be sorry about. If anything, it's me who should be sorry. I'm the reason she was here." Replied the Maknae with a small smile, but it was clear that he was feeling guilty right now.
"For her outburst. She was just hurt. And Kookie it is no one's fault. We get it that you just wanted to hangout with her. So did everyone of us. I mean, atleast 6 of us." Yoongi replied back.
Silence fell inbetween them once again. All of them waiting for Namjoon to explain himself.
"Hyung, can you please give me back my phone?" Asks Namjoon, breaking the silence.
"No Joon-ah. Not unless you explain what's the fuck is going on? And you cannot just ignore her and then go back and start texting her like nothing happened." Said Jin. Everyone was stunned because Jin wasn't one to curse, ever.
"Ok fine I will." Says Joon.
They all just nod, motioning him to continue.
"It isn't like I want to ignore her but I'm scared ok? The moment I saw her, there was something in her that intrigued me, and that's what's scaring me. The last time someone intrigued me, I was left a heartbroken mess who didn't even know how to survive without that person. I had to bury down all my hurt & anger just so it doesn't effect either of our careers." He stops to take a breath through his tears. "I do... I do want to get to know her, just like you all but I'm scared. I'm scared of going back to the old my who had to heal himself by burying himself into work. I'm scared of getting hurt all over again. I'm scared of letting myself feel anything for her when all she wants from me is friendship. I'm scared.... I'm just so scared that l don't know what to do anymore." He's a blubbering mess by now.
No one says anything for a while, letting Namjoon collect himself. After a while, he speaks again. "And moreover I've responsibilities. BTS is my first and foremost responsibility and my priority. I've promised PD Nim and I cannot let him down." RM continues looking at his feet.
They all just keep quiet letting all he said sink in. They all always knew that BTS has always been everything to Namjoon, but now hearing his words just made their hearts ache.
Yes, he was their leader, the one all of them could rely on for literally anything. But knowing that he's prioritising BTS over his happiness is something that's not acceptable for any of them.
"Namjoon-ah, we love that we all are you priority but please it's been years since we've been together. We're not that kids anymore who had to hide behind you everytime something happened. Yes, we aren't the leaders of BTS, but we can all take care of ourselves and each other. Please don't prioritise us over your happiness." Says the sunshine, placing his hands on Namjoon's shoulder and giving it a gentle squeeze.
"Exactly Hyung. We know you like Y/N. We can see the way you look at her. So please, please don't push her away because of your past or because you feel like we're the priority. Sure enough, BTS will always be each of our priority but that doesn't mean that you'll push away someone who finally makes you smile." Speaks Taehyung from the other side of Namjoon, giving him a small smile.
"Hyung you need to understand that Y/N is not Myeong. She isn't here for your money or just to use you for sex. She is a genuine girl. A girl who has no one to call hers in the world. A girl who has no siblings, whose dad passed away when she was 12, whose mother is a drug addict. A girl who never had any friends, who wants nothing but to have someone who will stay by her side." Said Jimin letting everything he knew out, not being able to hide it from anyone any longer.
"Her mother? Jimin-ah how do you know about her mother?" Asked Jin.
"I was passing by PD Nim's office a few days back when I heard them talk. I didn't mean to eavesdrop but when I heard the sound of her sniffling, I just stood there listening to what's going on." Said Jimin honestly.
"And moreover Joonie, you have no idea what you mean to that girl. Try talking to her please. She didn't need anything from you but friendship. She values you a lot." It was Yoongi talking this time.
"Noona won't hurt you Hyung. Please don't push her away." Says JungKook. He has been a crying mess since you left their dorm and literally none of them going bring him to calm down.
Namjoon just sat there thinking about what his band mates just said. They were right, and he knew that. He knew that you weren't even a bit like Myeong. And he decided that now he wasn't going to push you away. He's going to be that friend of yours that you need.
"I'll... I'll talk to her tomorrow. You guys are right. I need to move on and stop thinking that every girl I come across is like Myeong. And... Thank you." He said giving them all a smile
"Ugh finally. Talk to Noona tomorrow itself Hyung. She looked very sad when she left from here." Said Jungkook with his eyes wide & a pout on his face.
"I will. Thank you guys. I love you all."
"We Love you too Joonie/Hyung." Said all of them in unison.
Those were the last words that were exchanged between them before Namjoon went up to his room and lied down on his bed.
The others soon followed suit by going into their respective rooms and called it a night.
On the other side, there you were, sitting on your bathroom floor, with your knees to your chest, your face resting upon your knees and your eyes overflowing with the unstoppable tears ever since you left their dorm.
You were not able to understand why Namjoon was acting that way, why he was behaving like you don't even exist.
Different thoughts are running through your head making you clutch your top tightly and bawling your eyes out.
You cried and cried till there were no more tears left in your body. Your eyes were sore from all the tears that were shed and your heart sore from all the pain. You then got up and went to lie down on your bed...
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Do you think Joon will tell y/n about his past? 🤨
A/N: Hey, you've the prettiest smile. Please keep smiling 🥺❤️
