You're My Only One! || KNJ - AU || ✓

Chapter Seventeen

- 𝐌𝐈𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐈'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -
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The moment I heard what Y/N said, my heart broke into pieces. Even though my mind could register what all she said, my heart wasn't ready to accept any bit of it.

She was someone very, VERY special to me. Sure, she was Namjoon's girlfriend but for me, she was someone I could rely on with anything.

Within a very short time, she became the only girl ever whom I could trust with everything I have. She was like a safe place, a safe haven for me.

I could vent about anything and everything to her and she'd never judge me. She'd instead try to get involved as much as possible and help me to the best of her knowledge and power.

I've always heard this one quote that says, "𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙗𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙪𝙩, 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩."

That's exactly how I felt since the moment Y/N said this words. I feel like someone's snatched away the oxygen supply from me and cut my thorat into half.

Like the world around me has come to a halt and all I want is to rewind time and make things alright.

If it was any other girl, I'm dead sure that it wouldn't have effected me as much as it's effecting me now, but again, that is precious Y/N, not just someone.

I've been keeping this from literally every single person. No one knew this except me. Which is that I'm head over heels in love with Y/N.

I've been in love with her for quite a while, or just say ever since I've met her. It was like an instant connection between us.

As cliché as it may sound, it was Love At First Sight!

But never one did I act on those feelings. I knew that Namjoon liked her and that was one thing that stopped me from taking any step on my feelings for her.

Yes, Namjoon wasn't yet in love with her, maybe he never will be, but for me, Namjoon will always come first, no matter I love Y/N or not.

Namjoon's been my brother for so many years now and I would never ever put any new person above him, and honestly, the same goes for the other members.

But right now, I wish that I was selfish and acted upon my feelings for her, rather than giving them up just to see Namjoon happy.

Atleast then, she wouldn't be as broken as she is now. Atleast I wouldn't have hurted her and made her miserable like he did....

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- 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -

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Almost 2 months passed by since everything happened in the hospital room. You've been admitted all along as per Bang PD's request, as he didn't want to risk you being along while you've not yet recovered a bit.