You're My Only One! || KNJ - AU || ✓

Chapter Twenty-six

- 𝐘/𝐍 𝐉𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒' 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -
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The moment everyone left the room, and it was Namjoon and I alone, I suddenly started becoming nervous. It isn't like I don't like or enjoy his company, but it's just that there's this tension between us, that I have no clue how to break.

I was feeling embarrassed. After breaking off things with him, and then not talking to him for a while, then asking him if we can start back as friends, and then suddenly kissing him in front of everyone.

I know that it was a spur of the moment, but still, I couldn't stop my overthinking mind. I couldn't help with what my overthinking mind was thinking at the moment.

What if I made him uncomfortable?

What if he didn't want me back in his life & I forced myself upon him by kissing him without any second thought?

What if he decided to move on from me & I ended up doing this?

What if-

My thoughts were broken by Namjoon's voice and him tapping on my shoulder.

"Earth to Y/N." He spoke while tapping me on my shoulder.

"Huh?" I questioned, still not fully focused on him, but on my stupid overthinking thoughts.

"You were zoning out and were clutching your sheets tightly with tears in your eyes. So, I just but scared seeing that." He spoke while taking a seat on the stool beside my bed.

"I... Uhh... Sorry.." I apologized, feeling even more embarrassed.

"Nuh... It's alright. You don't need to apologize for anything." He said with a soft smile.

We both eventually got lost in each other's eyes, the room filled with silence apart from our breaths, the rest of the world not matter for the time being.

Namjoon eventually broke eye contact & looked down at his lap while fiddling with his fingers.

"What's wrong?" I asked him, unknowingly showing my worry for him.

"It's... It's just that... The day I tried committing suicide, before doing that, I found your diary lying on my table. I didn't mean to invade your privacy, so I thought of returning it to Bang PD Nim and asking him to return it to you.

But then I saw a note sticking out of it..."

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- 𝐊𝐈𝐌 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐉𝐎𝐎𝐍'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -
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Flashback: 2 months ago~

She left me, and I didn't know what to do. I've been isolating myself from everyone and kept myself locked inside my room.

I forgot what food tasted like or what sitting with everyone and having a conversation and laughing felt like. The only thing my mind and body now knew was alcohol and the only thing my heart knew and craved for was her... Y/N...