Light of my moon(Akk X Ayan)| The Eclipse

Part 20

Akk POV

This week has been a real stress. On one side this Xion guy is bothering me, and on the other side, my coach Long wants me to win the tournament for him and his partner to escape Thailand, and on the other side, I actually cannot think I can sustain the relationship with Ayan. He wants me to spend more time with him, but with a huge pressure on myself how can I think spending time with him? Have I become so selfish?

"Akk, are you avoiding me? You are online, but you are not replying to my text.", he texted me. I was too stunned for a minute. Why would I intentionally avoid him? Moreover, I am not him, it was him who did once, by intentionally avoiding me to make me confess that I love him.

I was typing for the answer searching for a suitable word to give him the reply. No words struck me. What should I tell him? If I say the real reason, then there might be a chance that we both break up. I want him and I want myself to excel in things that I do too.

Finally, I gave up and just typed, "You cannot understand!", and switching off my phone, I silently strode across the street to my condo. On the way back home, I thought about my childhood days, which were so carefree, people around me say that I am still a child, but I am a child with a lot of responsibility.

I have never thought that my actions of me can affect another person's life too. After I and Ayan have been in a relationship, even my slightest change is affecting his moods and his life routine. Am I worth being in love with him?

With a heavy heart, I reached the condo, took a cold shower, and went back to switch on my phone.

10 missed calls, Ayan.

"You can discuss anything with me, you know right!"

"Akk, I deserve to know what is bothering you. I am your boyfriend."

"I want to talk to you"

"Just talk please"

He has messaged me. Two minutes later, I got a message, "I am standing below your condo, come and see me, if you truly care."

Shit Aye! So, Aye's behavior. What if I was not at my condo, will he be waiting for me before my condo all night long?

I viewed him from the balcony, he looks like a lonely loser waiting for someone eagerly and them not showing up, and it is so guilty for me that the person that he is waiting for is me.

With furiousness, wet down with no patience to even take the left but in stairs. "Are you mad?", I asked him.

"No, you are the one who is acting mad!", he replied.

"I told you, I am so busy concentrating on the match!", I shouted at him. We both are standing on the deserted street. No one was around us, if we continue to shout and fight like this, there are chances that we might wake up our neighbors and cause great chaos.

"Akk, I need to talk to you. I need clarifications on a few things.", he hugged me.

I cannot say any other words, I was helpless but to feel empathy for him. He deserves to know every answer since we are boyfriends.

He suggested a quiet place, so we went to the nearby park. It was almost midnight, no one was there.

On the deserted park, we sat only on a bench that had a street light near. We both stayed silent for a very long time, it is almost midnight.

"Ayan, I am sorry if I made you worried.", I initiated.

He stayed silent. "See, I am under great pressure, I am new to it, and I suck at handling this love life, my responsibility, and all the hopes that have been bestowed upon me."