Is Ihstan Alone?

XX

CHAPTER 20

Ritzieh's debut ended at past 2:30 AM in the early morning. Some of our classmates stayed because there was a drinking session. I did not drink because we have a classes tomorrow. Ritzieh advised our classmates to drink responsibly, especially to those who will drive.

"Thank you for helping me. We made this event a success." Said Ritzieh to me and Kaldhi.

We three did not expect that the whole resort occupied all the seats. The faculty staff, Ritzieh's parents - friends and colleagues, some government officials, and a lot more were present in Rizieh's debut.

It was 4:04 AM when Kaldhi dropped me off in my house. His stare at me made me uncomfortable and I avoided it. This still makes me awkward. I was thinking if what if I was not hit by a ball, I think that our connection was still the same. We can laugh and tease each other. We can talk nonsense things and travel. I miss the old connection of us.

"I'm sorry." Kaldhi spoke after a seconds. "I promise I will stop my feelings for you and bring back the same energy that you used to. Just give me some time." He said and I felt his voice cracked.

"I will expect that. I miss the old you, not the shit and stupid Kaldhi that I am sitting with. I want my bastard friend back." I coldly replied.

Without saying goodbye I exited in his car and immediately felt my conscience for him. Should I not be rude to him? Because I guess this was a good idea to prevent his confusing feelings to me. In this way, we can easily recover and easily forget the nightmare which put us in this challenging position. Kaldhi and I needed to bring back the genuine friendship which we worked hard for almost a decade. 

We should not fall in love.

I wiped my faced and sighed. I felt that his car was still at my back. I was about to turn around and walk at him to say sorry when he already started the engine and drive away.