Is Ihstan Alone?

XXVI

CHAPTER 26

After taking a bath. I blowered my hair. My body was aching because of the play, but honestly I miss playing table tennis. Next, I sat in my veranda and imagine things again. I felt comfortable and happy while looking the beautiful moon and the stars. It's comforting me.

I was about to sleep when my phone beeped and I got a message to Kaldhi.

kaldhiperscopeh [Can I come over? We need to talk.]

My face suddenly became curious. I replied yes to him and waited him infront of my house. I also informed my parents that he will be coming.

When Kaldhi arrived, he was with his new motorcycle. He was currently using that to pick me up in school instead of his car. Our travel became faster and easier.

"Why? You miss me?" I joked and let him inside of my house. "We can talk tomorrow instead." I said.

We proceeded in my room and we directed to veranda. He was still not talking. I looked at him again and I noticed his teary eyed. Does he have a problem?

"Ihstan, I love you." He said almost a whispered. But I noticed his voice cracked. "I love you, my world." And then he cried.

"I know that, Kaldhi. I love you too." I smiled at him. "Wait, what's with you today? Do you have a problem? Why are you crying? Was there a problem?"

I was exhausted and he was being dramatic. I don't have time for this to comfort him. I know that he misses me again that is why he is like this. He was emotional and me also I had been experiencing this kind of emotion. I have no idea why those unexplainable things in human being occurred. Perhaps they just want to express how they feel in an emotional way even they were happy.

"Ihstan, I think we should be friends again. I think we should stop our feelings as you have said."

I was stunned.

I got confused and confused. What's with him?

"I don't understand you."

"I mean what we were doing to Ritzieh. The cheating shits. This should be stop right now." He clearly stated.

"Did you already realized what we were doing was wrong?"

My tears immediately stream down in my face. What the fvck? Why he is hurting me? I thought we loved each other. I thought we should keep this as a secret to everyone, especially to Ritzieh, and continue what we feel. I love Kaldhi and I don't want to stop this shit. I don't want to lose him. What the fvck is wrong?

"No. I am okay about that because I love you more than her. But Ihstan we can't continue our secret relationship anymore."

My heart was like stab a thousand of knives because of what he said.

"Then elaborate me what is going on so that I know. I already fell to you harder. I said back then that you should stop your feelings to me immediately but you did not listen. You pushed yourself to me." My voiced cracked. "Kaldhi, please." I said.

"I am sorry. This was all my fault. I should not do that to you and Ritzieh, especially that you are bestfriends."

"Tell me, what was happening so that I am aware. I was okay with this totally. This stupid cheating. I was okay with this as long as we were loving each other. I am your world, right?"

I have nothing to say right now aside from being hurt and confused. I don't get why Kaldhi was doing this to me. Did I do something terrible that makes him mad at me? Kaldhi and I were okay this past day. We even had sex.

"Ihstan, we can't. I am sorry. Let's stop this." His tone became lower. "We should bring back our friendship that was destroyed."

"Then, explain to me what is going on so that I don't feel like a fool here. Tell, me so that I knew what I am going to do." I began raising my voice.

"She's pregnant, Ihstan. She's pregnant. Fvck!"

My mouth formed an "o" and suddenly stopped.

"What do you mean?"

"Ritzieh. She's pregnant and I am the father."

Did I just hear it right? I was run out with tears but the pain inside me still hurts.

"So you wear toying me? Us? After you had a sex, you go with me in another day, is that it? You are an asshole. You ruined her life."

"We had just one sex, Ihstan. What are you saying?!"

I avoided my gaze at him and became calm.

"W-When?"

"January."

I paused for a couple of seconds until I pointed my pointing finger in the door.

"Get out. I don't want to see you again. "

"Ihstan, please. Don't do this to me."

"Get out, you asshole! You were such a big mistake in my life. Fvck you! Beginning tomorrow, don't pick me up. I will now commute!"

I cried and cried until I felt his warm embrace in me. He said sorry and sorry over and over again. His embrace got tighter and tighter.

Yeah. I was definitely hurt. But since I am just a snake, I shouldn't be in that position to be one. I am, indeed.

"Can I spend the night here?" He asked and kissed my forehead.

I hesitated before nodding.

"I'm sorry I hurt you, Ihstan, but please remember that you were the best highlight in my life that ever happened to me."