Insufferable (Tom Kaulitz)

Bustling about

The next day I woke up in a cold sweat, I dreamt about the gang from yesterday chasing down me and Gwen, shooting at us from their cars. Guns always terrified me. Even the mention of one would make me almost instantly throw up.

I felt nauseated from my dream and decided to just lay in bed and ponder last night. I looked at the clock, 1 pm it read. I stayed up late last night hoping for Gwen to eventually come home but she never did.

Surprisingly I wasn't too worried, it wasn't out of character for her to go on benders and not come home for a week. I don't miss the 3 am phone calls from her parents worried where she was, I'd always say she crashed at my house when in reality she was probably in the next state at a random house party.

I decided I was going to force myself to go explore the city alone. I got up, showered, threw on the some baggier fitted jean shorts and a tight brown long sleeve and headed out.

I had a cab drop me off downtown and began to walk around aimlessly. The streets were crowded which in a way was comforting, people were too busy to notice how lost I was. Even clutching onto a map of the city didn't help my sense of direction.

I eventually stumbled into what looked like a cafe. I desperately needed a coffee. I ordered a mocha and sat at the counter.

"Excuse me sir can you point there where this cafe is on my map?" I said sweetly to the nice old man behind the bar.

He gave me a soft smile and pointed. At least now I'd have some clue of what to do next. He handed me my coffee, I thanked him and reached for my purse.

"No, no. For you" the man insisted.

I looked at him confused "no please let me pay I want to tip you" I scrambled back into my bag.

"Please mrs, it's okay" he gently caressed my hands to stop me.

I just smiled and took a sip of my drink. I looked out the large window to my side and watched the busy city fly by until something or rather someone caught my eye.

On the other side of the street I seen a tall figure wearing all black, it was hard to see details with people and cars passing. I squinted my eyes, the man looked as if he could see me looking through the window, it made me uneasy. I turned back to take another sip of my coffee when suddenly common sense hit me. My eyes widened, I swung back to the window and the man was now gone.

"Sir, sir" I waved down the barista "can I have a cup to take this with me please" I could tell my voice was shakey.

The man looked out the window slightly worried then grabbed me a takeout cup before again giving me a soft smile.

I poured the rest of my drink into the cup and fiddled with the lid, I dug in my purse quick and left some change on the table for a tip and left the store.

I brushed off my paranoia and continued following the map around. I window shopped a bit and when I could make out a distinctive shop I'd circle it on my map and make note of it, hoping this would help me navigate easier in the future.

It was now almost dinner time so I figured id pick up some groceries and make my way back home. I stumbled down a small alley that was less busy, it was lined with fresh produce carts and other low priced Knick knacks. I picked up some fresh veggies and fish. Everyone in the small market seemed to have the same caring smile towards me but there was something off behind all their eyes, it was similar to fear and worry but in a trapped way.

I finally flagged down a cab and made my way back to our apartments. I clutched all my grocery bags and kicked off my shoes.

"Gwen! Gwen are you home?" I shouted. I seen her door closed so I figured she was just sleeping. I placed the food items on the counter and began to prep my ingredients. Every so often I'd look at Gwen's door. The house was silent but I tried not to think anything of it.