Im Not Going Anywhere | Neyteyam x Reader ff

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~Letting Go~

I gasped for air as I sat up quickly out of my sleep. My hand immediately finding its way to my neck as a reflex. It been 2 weeks since Neteyams funeral and I've still been having the same dream every night, waking up every morning in a cold sweat breathing heavily.

I looked around my Marui to see no one there. the suns light beamed through the small gaps and holes in the walls causing me the squint my eyes to adjust to the morning light.

I haven't told anyone about the dream or the fact that I wasn't sleeping well at night, I mean it's not like I was talking to anyone anyways. The last person I had an actual conversation with was Loak and that didn't end well.

Tsireya and Ao'nung would come check on me throughout the days and would even bring me food after dinner, for the reason that I never went out to eat with everyone else, nor did I eat the food they brought me but I still cared. I wish I didn't have to feel this way but it's how I always been.

My mother has constantly tried to get me to go to Spirit Tree to see him again, but in all honesty I was afraid...I was afraid that if I were to go see him I would never be able to live with the fact that he's really gone and the only way i'd ever get to see him was through a glowing tree.

I decided to go for a short walk around the shore or relive some stress and relax my mind. I could see parents and children on their Ilu's and Skimwing's in the water, all with bright big smiles on their faces. I found myself smiling softly at them remembering times when my parents weren't as busy and could spend time with Me, Ao'nung and Tsireya like that.

I stayed out for a while before deciding to walk back towards the Marui's, The sun was slowly dying down and eclipse was starting to come. As I hopped onto the pathways, I turned my head and froze when I saw the familiar Forest family walking towards their home, hoping they didn't see me I turned on my heels quickly and walked away.

I didn't really know where I was going, just letting my feet and legs take me wherever, and when I looked up and noticed I was on the Ilu dock it made me realize that I indeed had absolutely no idea where I was going or why.

Letting out a sigh, I sat on the edge of the dock, letting my legs hang off the side. I tried to think about anything but the Sully's, I was to afraid to face them. Especially after what happened with Lo'ak. I didn't want to be any more trouble to them.

Eclipse Started a while after I got to the Ilu dock, I just sat there watching the brightly colored glowing fish swim in between my feet. I looked up towards the sky where the stars were slowly forming in the night.

If Neteyam were here he'd say something about my eyes glowing perfectly with the stars or how beautiful my smile was, and honestly that would've been true if he was actually here, but all the life and happiness in my heart disappeared the moment I saw him laying lifeless on the sand.

I hadn't realized my eyes were filled with tears until someone walked up from behind me and sat down causing me to shake slightly and a tear to quickly fall from my eye.

I knew someone would come looking for me soon, hence how late it was and for the reason I'm usually never out after eclipse, but the person that was next to me was one I never expected...

"How are you kid?" Jake Sully asked quietly in a strong tone. I looked down at my intertwined hands, taking a deep breathe as I thought about how to answer his question.