Awake and alive

Part 2

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'I'm not gonna live that long' y/n was crying when she send that msg

'But why??'
'Suicide'
'Then laugh till you die'
She added y/n to the gc

Y/n has joined the chat

'Hello?'
'OMG HELLO? NEW MEMBERS?'
'HELLO THERE IM Y/N I HOPE YALL LIKE ME'
'Whatever' says some random girl she seems cold

'I was wondering what if we all become friends??'
'IT WILL BE SO FUN OMG'
Y/n was happy but felt really empty

They all talked over night there were a lot of people there like 20? Y/n was enjoying
Then she cried herself to sleep and her wrists were sore from self harm

Y/n pov

'I woke up again' y/n sighed as she felt empty and numb
'Come and eat dinner' says her mom
'Okay'

I sat down on the table my dad was eating
I was staring at the food
'why aren't you eating?'

'I am'
I picked my spoon up and actually ate a little bit of rice

'Darling we love you more than anything'
'I love you too' I smiled

'I'm done'
'Eat'
'But I'm not hungry'
'I SAID EAT YOU UGLY PIG' says D/n
'y/n eat' says M/n

'But I'm really full'
I Stood up in teary eyes and went straight to my room

'Shit what am I even spoused to do'

I thought then I just skipped dinner like that I went straight to my phone and smiled at my phone and start talking to ppl in the gc and then I realized 'shit they all are depressed too' I thought

I talked to them till morning again then I slept
After two days

I went to eat an apple then I saw a candy bar

'No no I'm trying to lose weight'

I thought I went back to my room I was talking to them again we were closer and closer

and I got closer to this girl named sausan we become pretty close and I become really close friends with Belina

After two weeks

I found out me and belina go to the same school

and we decided to meet up

she came to my house and it was really fun but 'god damn'

I thought as I looked at her she got slim hourglass body shape and she was tall and had a really beautiful clear skin and pretty Doe eyes pretty lips and a button small nose 'she's the prettiest girl I've ever seen' I thought

and she ate a lot and still stayed fit I am jealous of her but in a good way we start calling alot and shit

She was actually fine but depressed the whole gc was suicidal including me they were talking about self harm then

'ew I rather die than do that shit I hate everyone who do sh sm' I said

they were telling me how good it feels and makes you feel alive again I was actually trying to feel alive because I was dead inside

and I missed nova more than anything

I've tried to commit suicide because of nova I thought of her everynight sometimes i talked about her in that gc

and they were like 'screw her' 'she probably misses you too' 'ew gays' that's what they said to me and more

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New part coming out on 29th June