Awake and alive

Part 12

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She send belina a msg (not my writing this is a copy n paste from Aurora 😞)

'Look idc how you think but i want to say that thing that i wanted to say for 4 fucking years

and i will say it and no matter what happens after that

I've never never wanted to be y/n's friend

and i never will I've just become friends with her just cause you liked her not me and since that day she came into our relationship

she have ruined all like all I've never ever felt this left out and

unloved when ever i tried to come and talk to you she was always there

and never let me say what i want and my whole life        
         I've been bullied
              by my family
                  and friends
                        everyone

and for the first time in my life i felt that someone was with me and sported me and didn't care about how i look and she took that person away from

me when we Fight together she'll be saying no don't fight

but i can see her fucking smirking inside

and that's when i started to realize that why nova wasn't talking to her anymore but when all three Of us are together i want to kill my self cause she always take me away from you

when i say belina come and sit next to me she'll be like let me sit between you two

and i hate it that day when we came back from shopping i could tell that she was dying because you

sit next to me not her I've always
hated her never liked her she has changed you

When I used to talk about my feelings
for you you tried to understand me but now you just

keep bringing up your problems to not try to
understand me ik you will be like no it's not like that and shit but it is and you want to

problems to not try to understand me ik you will be like no it's not like that and shit but it is

and you want to know another thing i feel like i don't trust you anymore cause do you remember you told y/n and nova about

my bf without asking for my permission? and you tell her everything and do you know why i don't tell her about

how my family feels about her because

if i tell her she won't come and you guys still be friends and seeing each other without me and that's what feeling left out means and

you told her that you feel more comfortable
around her

not me and she said that when we were talking in tik tok that day if you remember

We were fighting in tik tok that day if you remember she is always around I've never liked her

or her family and i never will cause she made me feel what i felt i was

happy for having a friend but she ruined all of it

and all the times when you know that something is wrong with me you came up and talked to me but now its not the same anymore

and i don't know if i ever feel that way again that's what I've been holding like look ik you love her bc she didn't take anything away from you

but she did to me ik you will be saying it's not like that but it is'

Belina send me the ss and she said that she wanted me to know that because she won't ever tell me I felt like

'wait wtf why'

Aurora never loved me

And that shit was hard for me

I mean everyone I knew betrayed me every single

one of them 

Idk how to feel anymore

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New part coming out on 17th July