Awake and alive

Part 11

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We become friends again and life wasn't that bad belina was better with me

I was starving I mean I didn't had anything anything at all in days

I went and drank a coffee and some food I felt like throwing up so I didn't eat anything else I went back to my phone

I was actually talking with belina she got much better with me and this time she looks like she cares about me

But I didn't even felt numb sad empty I felt like
I don't feel anything
Anything at all

I thought that I lost my feelings but that ain't possible so I just acted even tho in my life time I always had a fake smile on 

I didn't wanted anyone to worry about me it just made me feel like a dumb person tho

me and belina were always talking same for aurora we were a happy trio

I felt like aurora never felt like she was jealous because I was talking with belina

Belina and aurora were always with each other because their house were near to each others house and like they were pretty close I kinda felt jealous

but I didn't I mean we're a trio after all and I was with my teammates i never loved them

tho beside two or three of them they always had backstabbed me of something like that

But not for gia she were always there for me

and I love her sm not long ago I found out she also do sh and it was kinda strange

she would get angry at me at practice for not being good enough

She wanted to be a national player so did I
I also wanted to be a national player

But sometimes I just felt like I'll never be because after all who am I to be a national player?
             To be a good player?
                   To be a good friend?
                          To be a perfect daughter?
                                         To be a human

aurora send belina a msg I mean we always hanged out with belina and Aurora we were a happy trio

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new part coming out today cuz this part was too short <33