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I still had Hope that Camila won't left me I mean she wouldn't I loved her more than anything and like we did hang out but I swear she will come back to me she has to I mean I can't live without her
at 1:58 am Friday 10th feb I went to see my DMs I saw camila Left a gc and
I msg her camila serval Times she answered 'hey'
I said 'Camila u missed you sm and I was literally talking about You in my notes rn'
She answers 'wild' i felt like my heart broke
I said 'something happend?'
She said 'stfu'
I said 'u were online all the time bur tou didnt msg me?'
She answered 'yeah I didn't want to'
I said 'I kept my promise I'm one month n 23 days clean' I lied
She said 'good job'
I said 'I almost died'
She said 'wild'
I said 'Man Be Cold to everyone bur Not me'
She said 'Im not'
'Man im glad that we talked' I said
'yup' she answered
I said 'Man I missed you'
Text delivered
Liked a msg
Seen
'since you were online why didn't you text me man'
'didn't feel like it'
'okay then damm Stay Safe'
End of confrontation
She was so cold with me but why? Zoe knew Camila had anotehr account but she never told me? I was literally
dying without her
I felt betrayed that time
Because Zoe probably knew how am I suffering without Camila and I want Camila back
I didn't eat for days so I could get skinny and be lovely even tho I was already skinny I just wanted to be more skinner
Camila didn't msg me after that
Me n belina r Talking again bur SHES SO Cold with me
'I just hate belina man Shes just Cold with me I should treat her how she treats me
At least she's better with me now ' that's what I thought
She blocked me again
'Is she srs like she always pick a fight with me I'm so done with her I've never told her what's in my mind but she just keep going tell me whatever goes to her fucking mind' that's what I thought again
No shit I'm not okay I'm literally dying inside
I can't do this anymore
I'm so tired of everyone's shit
I'm just so tired of everything I look at the fucking mirror every fucking day
just say the worst shit i could think of it like y/n ur ugly y/n ur fat y/n ur not good enough y/n ur never gonna be perfect ur never gonna be pretty
ur never gonna be smart ur never gonna be good enough for them cause ur a worthless piece of shit and no one likes you I just hate everything I hate life I hate my personality I hate my body
I hate my scars I hate every single thing about me
I went straight to the bathroom
i locked the door and went inside the bath tub
I start cut myself
Scars were deeper than my thoughts
The bathtub was red it was all blood I wish that I wasn't alive
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Teen FictionThe story has 13 short chapters <3 Don't you miss me Or the night we snuck out your window? Oh, cause you're so crazy now Looks like I'm not the only one now And I can finally see the light Oh, there's a million stars tonight A single one could...
