A Little Bit Of It (JENLISA)

Epilogue: End of The Road.

A/N: As we officially come to an end, first and for most, I would like to thank you for supporting this story, this story has been something I've been writing for quite a while. I apologize for the times where the updates were slow. Now that I officially graduated from my HighSchool life and onto my journey entering the college life as a Nursing student I would like to thank you for being patient enough to wait for my updates. Out of the stories I have written, this is the only one where I've grown to be very attach with.

When I first started writing this I was facing a bit of struggle in my life, I used writing as my way of coping through that struggle. And so with this, I shared some of my personal opinions on things. Keeping this short, thank you once again and please, enjoy the very last chapter of this story.

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If you were to write your own story, would you write the days where you feel the happiest, the worse or maybe a mix of both? I suppose we'll never know that, my story is rather simple, short yet powerful to me, may not be for everyone but it is for me. There are days where I write my most breathtaking moments or the days where I feel an absolute shit person.

As days went on, I learned to be able to show a bit more of my emotions to Lisa once again,  talking and opening up to her is the best thing that have happened to me, she always make sure that my feelings are never invalidated, even showers me with so much assurance. 

As time went out, years passing by we went into our separate lives. Park Chaeyoung still together with Jisoo while I on the other hand has been traveling the world. Alone. Lisa the love of my life has a fixed fate I suppose. 

As I stare into the depths of the ocean, teemingly with mysteries and unknown. Corners of my lips starts to curl into an upward, recalling that the love of my life, burned to ashes and I, releasing her to the world. 

Wherever you may be, may the world guide your beautiful, courageous soul Lisa. For you deserve to receive the best things this could ever offer even if you have disappeared into a bliss. Now that I'm sitting here, on a bench with the sun setting, the waves howling with the warm, sticky air flying through me I smiled to myself. 

So maybe this is what they mean to be in love, to love the right person for you. Shaking my head I slowly rested my back flatly on the bench. Hell, Lisa might be my first ever love but she definitely taught me the true definition of love.

A love where it is filled with unconditional things. Lisa never made me feel that I have to reciprocate any of the things that she has done for me, of course I still did things. I like to believe that in a relationship there's a bit of 50/50, it may not be for everyone but it's something I like to believe on.

While Lisa made sure I feel like I'm on top of the world, I made sure she felt the same way. Looking down on my thighs, I took a closer look of my journal, it was old, messy and definitely smelled like an old book, similar to those you find in the libraries. As I flip through the pages, a memory of where Lisa and I have first met played. 

I was simply minding my own business, ensuring that I arrived my first class early. Then suddenly, a voice from behind was heard and it was none other than Lalisa Manoban. I remember being so drawn to her exquisite features. That, officially day was where I realize my heart thumped for the first time in my whole existence.

Keeping this briefly and short, whenever you feel inlove, try taking the risk. Pain is such a beautiful thing that's been mostly misunderstood, now we may prefer having a happy filled with laughters but pain is there for reason, to teach us about the beauty of it, to let us evolve and determine what we should and should not do. 

I say, whenever you're feeling that deep connection of love, take a risk, I mean you only live once and pain is feeling that will always be a part of our lives. And if time comes and you feel that inevitable torture, always know there are two things we can do, either we let time heal us, or we learn to fight with the pain. Love is love and it will always be full of happiness, disappointments, anger, and many more. But that's the beauty of it isn't? The way that any of these can happen depending on your life choices. Such a wonder, thrill that is yet to be discovered.

With me losing the love of my life, I choose to fight alongside the pain and show eager in trying, she may have disappeared from the world physically but I like to believe Lisa will always be with me spiritually. 

Ripping a piece of paper from my notebook I wrote these words;

My love,

Wherever you are right now, no matter how far or close you are to me, always know you have been nothing but an amazing girlfriend to me. It's a shame that life has take you away from me in our early stage of life, but always know, there isn't a day I stopped thinking of you, praying for you and have been missing you. 

Lalisa Manoban, my love, my amazing girlfriend, may we crossed path once again in the afterlife and be in each others' arms once again. I love you always and more.

As soon as I was done writing, folding the paper into four equal parts, I left the paper by the bench together with the pen. Smiling once again, I stood up and have made my way towards the fence, making sure I inhale the scent of the salty water in front of me. 

Without having any thoughts, I closed my eyes and slowly brought myself on top of the fence, standing, balancing. "I'm ready" I say, as I whisper the words, a strong wind gushed through me as I slowly fall towards the ocean. With silence hovering over me, the moment I opened my eyes I saw a glimpse of light shining in front of me.

Swimming towards the light, I was greeted by none other the amazing Lalisa Manoban. "You just really had to follow me huh?" She scoffed. She was wearing a white thick clothe, her hair color changed. It was now blonde and her lips were now as red as cherries.

"I just missed you too much." I replied, eyes rolling as I stare at the beautiful latter. "We're finally together now." Her words coming out rather as a whisper, she walks closely to me, shutting our distance down as she rested her forehead against mine. "I'm finally in the arms of my first love, the person I'll always love." I replied with a smile.

"I love you, crazy Jennie Kim."

"And I love you, sexy Lalisa Manoban."

Now my story may not have an happy ending, but this is the ending I choose for myself, a decision where consequences will be face in the future. No matter what my choices are, I know I have zero regrets in doing them.