A Little Bit Of It (JENLISA)

Chapter 9: Exquisite Little Kitty.

Flopping on the bed, ashamed was the first word that came into my mind. How could I do that? Does this make me selfish? Question after question was stocking up I felt ashamed by actions towards Lisa. Why did I do that? It was the moment where everything felt peaceful, calming and just perfect. I sighed angrily and hurriedly took my phone checking to see if there were any updates from her. None.

God Jennie, you are so f-cking stupid. I thought you like Lisa? That was already the moment and you had to just ruin in for the both of you, what if she hates me? What if she thinks I don't like her? My mind felt like a tornado was passing through as questions such as what if's kept running around my head.

Taking a deep breath I grabbed my phone and quickly messaged Lisa. The moment I was about to chat her a sudden thrump was heard coming from downstairs, without hesitating I made my way downstairs and found my Father lying on the ground, blood splat everywhere with two other dead bodies.

"JENNIE! GO UP TO YOUR ROOM AND MAKE SURE TO LOCK THE DOOR!" He barked, without having any second thoughts I obeyed him in an instant and do what I was told. What the hell did I just see? Two dead bodies on the ground Mr. Kim on the ground and blood splattered everywhere. Lisa, shit. How am I suppose to message her now when everything is a mess downstairs? I need her. A sudden realization hit me, I need her. Grabbing my phone my hand were shaking from fright as I recall what I have seen downstairs.

As I was dialing 911 my breathing was uneven and everything felt around me seems to be a blur. "Hurry up, pick the phone up Jesus Christ." I mouthed angrily, what's taking them this long? "Hello 911, what's your emergency?" Thank f-cking finally. "Yes Hello, there's been a shootout at my house the address is ***** ****** ****9" "Okay Ma'am, a police will be in your route in just a few minutes" The call ended and I kept praying to God that everything will be over. I scrolled through my contacts and quickly messaged Lisa.

"Lisa, I need you"

In an instant she replied.

"What do you want Jennie? You left me this afternoon and all of a sudden you need me?"

Just from her text I coud immediately tell she was hurt and heartbroken from a actions a while ago. Sighing in defeat I came clean with her.

"I'm sorry I ran, everything just felt so sudden and new. I've never experience those kind of feelings and it honestly scares me whenever I feel that way and sometimes it makes me asks questions because for some reason I only experience those things when I'm with you. I'm sorry for my behavior, but please Lisa I need your right now"

"Send me the address and I'll be there."

Sending her my address a sight of relief occupies me. Closing my eyes I slid my back on the door and took a deep breath, today marks a very memorable and unforgetting memory indeed. Laying my head on the door I stared at the window, watching the sun disappear from my view. I guess I could say this is a story that I definitely wouldn't miss once I start a family of my own. Creaking the door open, screams were heard. I quickly shut the door once again and minded my own business, please don't die Mr. Kim.

Minutes later a sudden bang coming from downstairs was heard, unlocking my door I twisted the handle and opened it was once agai "EVERYONE HANDS WHERE I CAN SEE THEM" Relief hovers me as I hear the police inside our home, finally. 

Standing up, I carefully walked towards the stairs as I see my Father's body laying flatly on the ground, eyes wide open and blood coming out from his abdomen. I screamed in horror which gave the police an alarming look, one of them went up to me and hurriedly placed a cop coat around me. Suddenly, I see Lisa running through the door and a cop pointed a gun on her. 

"Wait! I know her, I told her to come her" Lisa quickly raised her hand and nodded from my statement. The cop lay the gun down and dialed for an ambulance. I ran up to Lisa and hugged her. "Lisa, My father. He's dead" I whisper the words but loud enough for her to here, she returned the hug and placed a hand on my hair, softly carresing it.

"Take a deep breath, I'm here now Jennie. My Exquisite little kitty" Tears continued to stream down as I held Lisa tighter never wanting her to let go. Seconds later, sirens were heard from a far, everything is finally calm now or so I think it is. "Please don't leave me" Words coming out without having a second thought of it, sudden by the words Lisa continued caressing my hair.

Reality then hit me, what am I going to do now? No Father, No Mother, I'm basically on my own now. I finally now understand what the books I have been reading mean, even though some family members tend to be the most abusive to people they're still family. Though I do know everyone has different reaction but, now that I lost my father, I still felt bad. Even thought I never truly know if he loves me as his own, he was still a father, someone who at least I could tell tried taking care of me even though there numerous threats.

"Hello, Ma'am please sit here" A lady accompanied Lisa and I designating us to sit at the ambulance. She covered us in blanket and I continued to hold Lisa close to me. I don't want her to disappear, I don't want to leave her sight ever again. "Hey Lisa?" I whisper

She humms in response and switches her position making sure she gets a good look of me. "I don't want to leave your sight ever again." Intertwining my fingers with hers. Cupping my cheeks and smiles softly "No matter wanna Kim, I'll always be here with you. I won't leave your sight" planting a soft kiss on my forehead.

Closing my eyes I placed my head on her shoulder blade and rested myself for a bit. Lalisa Manoban, oh the sweetest things you do to me, they never fail to make my heart flutter.

Moments later we were brought to the hospital for inspections while the police asks me numerous questions. "What were you doing upstairs ma'am?" His eyes covered in darkness but with pure intentions. "Like I said officer, My father told me to go up and lock the door behind me. And that's when I dialed 911 and begged to God that you'd come any sooner" Annoyance was starting to emerge from my voice. The cop apologized for the inconience and thanked me for my cooperation with him, I nodded my head in return and shifted my eyes elsewhere.

I can't believe I am officially alone once again in this shithole world. People say God has plan's for everyone, is this really necessary? What did I do to deserve this God? I'm trying to better, to be a good daughter, a good student and this is what I get? Look, please I trust you with all that I am God, I believe in you but this is just unfair, I'm sorry for questioning you but I just don't know what to do anymore. What do I do now? Where do I go? Without realizing pool of tears started to drip down my face. Taking a deep breath I know this is just another one of those bumpy roads in life, I'll get through this, like I always  do. It'll take me some time but I'll get through this.

Laying my head on top of my hand I continued crying, letting my tears stain the ground. "Hey, there there, let it all out" She cooed, patting my back. Wiping my tears I turn to face her angelic face. "I'm really glad you're here Lisa, I don't know what I'd do without you" She smiles in reply and pulled me into a hug. "Silly girl, even if I'm here or not, I'm sure you know what to do, you're the amazing Jennie Kim after all" She plants a kiss on my cheek and that's when I felt it again. The unknown feeling that's been causing my abdomen to hurl in discomfort and my head coated with unanswered questions seemingly as if it's raining cats and dogs inside my tumultuous head.

"Thank you for believing in me"

"No need to thank me Nini, there isn't a day where I didn't believe in you"

As those words filled the crowded room, with Lisa's presence beside me everything feels as if nothing is impossible anymore.