All Of My Silences Will Be Your Words [English Vers. - FINISHED]

Chapter Twenty-One

How could I not want to sleep with him, right ? Of course I'd said yes. After all, he was my boyfriend. My cheeks warmed at the thought. Yes, he was my boyfriend ; and it felt all weird because it was the first time I'd realized it so much.

Would I feel this way every time we did something new together ? That mix of emotions, euphoria, joy and that feeling of newness... Well, not just a feeling, since I'd never had a boyfriend before.

- Are you asleep yet ?

I jumped up and lifted my head from under the blanket I'd buried myself under a few minutes earlier.

- No, I've been waiting for you, I breathed, praying that the red in my cheeks had disappeared.

A big smile spread across his face as he set his things down on the small desk stuck against a wall in the corner of the room, before lying down next to me. He then turned to me, his eyes shining with the same emotion I'd been describing earlier in my head. I couldn't help but smile back, and then we both broke into a fit of giggles as we realized we were grinning at each other like two idiots.

- I don't know if I'll be able to sleep if all we're doing is laughing, Felix commented cheerfully.

- Me neither, I replied in the same tone.

But I don't care, I added silently. We could have slept in, or pulled an all-nighter and talked all night, any of which would have suited me. I just wanted to be with him.

- I'm fine with you, I whispered, sinking a little deeper into the soft, fluffy blankets.

- I'm comfortable with you too, Sae-Jin Lee, he replied, coming closer to me.

- I like my new surname, I commented, letting him come a little closer so he could kiss me.

Which he did, laughing at my remark. His lips were soft, and smelled of mint toothpaste.

- I like it too. He replied, closing his eyes.

I suddenly remembered that he'd told me he'd have to work tomorrow, and that it was almost one o'clock in the morning.

- Good night, I murmured, kissing him back before quickly turning off my light so he wouldn't see my cheeks turn red again.

- Good night, Sae, I heard softly.

***

The awakening was... Hard. Horrible. Hell, I already wanted to crawl back under my comforter, and it wasn't even half past nine yet ! And to think that Felix had gone off to work and dancing and all the other tiresome things that made me not even want to get off the sofa... He was brave, I tell you. And our sofa is very comfortable, I can tell you.

I glanced at my phone. I'd texted the girls and Mrs. Lee to reassure them that I was fine, and that everything had been fine since yesterday. They were going to call me today, so we could see each other for a bit. It was the first time I'd ever FaceTime, and I was praying that I'd get everything right, and that it wouldn't be too stressful. At least, the advantage of being able to see them was that if I ever couldn't talk anymore, they'd notice. At least, that's what I was trying to tell myself to reassure myself.

In the meantime, since we weren't going to FaceTime for several hours, I'd immersed myself in my Korean lessons... And even though I was highly motivated last night, it wasn't as easy once I'd gotten up after only six short hours of sleep.

But I had no choice : if I wanted to make rapid progress, I had to start ! And then I'd be able to look for my parents, and simply be able to manage more easily on my own here in Korea.

A message from Felix pulled me out of class an hour later. Surprised, because I wasn't expecting a text from him, I jumped at the notification with glee (after all, who wouldn't have done the same between classes and a boyfriend?).

Message exchange with : Lix ♥

Lix : Hey Sae, are things still going well on your end ? I'm sending you a quick message to ask if you'd like to come and eat with us this lunchtime ?<3 It'll just be Chan and HyunJin, the others will be leaving early for photo shoots ! We'll be small, so let me know if you feel like it :)

Good luck with your Korean,

I love you ><

I smile as I read the end of his message, happy as if he'd given me a present before Christmas. Love makes you stupid, I tell you.

I typed a quick reply, before going to look at the path to join the boys without getting lost.

Message exchange with: Lix ♥

Me: Hi Lix, how are you? No worries about lunch, it'll do me good to get out, and I want to see you :)

I love you too <3

And that's how, from half past noon onwards, I found myself sitting on the terrace of a fast-food restaurant, in front of a hamburger and a hot chocolate.

- It's the first time I've ever seen someone eat a hamburger with... Hot chocolate ? Lix commented, making a disgusted face at my lunch.

- Me, too. replied HyunJin sitting opposite us.

I shrugged and smiled at their unconvinced looks.

- I know, I said, Lix's sisters said the same thing to me the first time we ate together. I like it.

- Are you sure you won't get indigestion with your weird mixture ? Felix insisted, wrinkling his nose.

- Want to give it a try ? I teased.

- No, thanks.

I was just bursting out laughing when Chan arrived with his own hamburger and sat down next to HyunJin.

- What's so funny ? He asked.

- Sae and her unique mixtures, replied Lix, showing him what I'd chosen.

- Wow, that's... Special ? Chan commented.

I'd already noticed him at the party yesterday, he was a very nice person, and I suspected Felix had told him a lot about me, hence his thoughtful manner towards me. I was very touched by this way of doing things, knowing that I didn't even know him, and we immediately got on quite well (let's just say I was able to get out more than three vocabulary words and make sentences out loud). Seeing him try to find the right words not to offend me and not to lie at the same time made me laugh.

- It's okay, I cut him off gently, I know it's weird.

- A little bit, yes, joked Chan. But why not ? If you like it, great. So... How are you two getting on ? We haven't had much time to talk about you two since your return, he added with a mischievous smile.

My cheeks flushed at the same time as Felix's, making HyunJin and Chan laugh.

- Look at that little couple in sync ! HyunJin commented to his colleague with an amused look.

- But you have to give them time... Chan replied in the same tone. How long have you been together ? A few days, since you've known each other for, what, a week ?

- That's quick, agreed HyunJin, laughing.

- Hey, stop gossiping ! Felix cut them off, shaking his drink in their faces.

- So how much ? HyunJin insisted, stealing the drink that was still waving in front of him.

- You just drank my fanta, grumbled Lix as I laughed at their little exchange.

- You're avoiding my question.

- And you're emptying my can.

- Don't worry, there's plenty left. What's up ? It's going to look like you don't even know yourself.

- You're lying. Two days.

- Ooouuuuh but it's only just ! Exclaimed HyunJin, putting down the empty can.

Felix muttered something in his corner as he tried to check whether the can was completely empty. But even though he was pretending to be half-angry, his smile gave him away.