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Part 26

Ruma laid under the blanket that Deon through over her. She was trying to not think about anything. When she heard the door to her room open. She crawled nerviously out from under to look.

"Ratok?" she signed tilting her head as she strained her eyes to see.

"I'm here," he said, and came in closer. "Can I join you on the bed? Or do you need me to be away?"

Ruma sat crossed legged, looking around her. She thought for a moment, this wasn't new to her, but it was different.

"Do you still want me?" she asked looking up as him with her blue orbs for eyes.

Ratok was stunned silent, "Why would you ask that?"

Ruma twitched, "I was touched after you claimed me." she grabbed her bedsheets in front of her, fearing he would come to his senses. "I wasn't careful enough-"

"Shut up." he grabbed her hands so that she couldn't talk. Ruma looked up at him; her lip trembled. "Respectfully, Ruma, I have watched you get rail senseless by other males less than a foot in front of my face. It didn't stop me from still wanting you." he laid her hands down gently now he knew he had her attention, backing up from her not to flood her space any more than he had already. "You had something horrible happen; why would you think I'd turn away?"

She didn't look at him but answered, "You choose me, your my maeger"

Ratok's shoulders dropped. "Ruma"

"I was constantly told to be careful, always, even from-" she paused, "my Orkan, but I didn't listen."

"Ruma don't make me shut you up again." she closed her own hands together.

He decided to sit on the bed. "Make me understand why you are worried about me going?"

"Maeger don't want females who were used. At least not after they claimed them."

Ratok shook his head, "Ruma, I am not one of your hyper-species, I think you forget that. I am your Maeger, I am not the same as the others. I've wanted you since day one."

"Than why didn't you claim me sooner?"

Ratok looked past her, "I don't know, I thought you may have not wanted me. I guess I didn't realise til recently you wanted me to claim you, it was how you reacted to Deon there did it kind of spark for me, you wanted what you were use to, I should have known you would have acted like your species."

They sat in silence for a minute. "I wasn't going to let them have me again-"

"Ruma, stop please. You don't have to keep doing that." Ratok placed his hand on her arm, rubbing his thumb up and down.

She was quite again for a minute, "Did you really mean, from day one?"

He nodded, "I don't lie."

Ruma offered a soft smile, though weak, and still full of pain it was genuine. She thought back to when she meet him.

~Many years ago~

Vassenhilo had Ruma on his shoulder as he walked through the compound. A ship had landed not to long ago.

"These are our new guards, remember to help me keep their moral up if need be."

Ruma nodded as the views of the animal kin came into view. Ratok much smaller, and younger than stood with the others.

Vassenhilo greeted them all, introduced himself and Ruma.

It wasn't even a full week later, when the guards started taking their passes of her.

Ratok however hadn't touched her. Which made her curious. She didn't know how to treat someone who wasn't trying to get in her, it had been so many years since that had happened.

"How do I talk to you?" she remembered that question. She was in the lab working on a project Vassenhilo assigned her. She stared at Ratok for a while.

He rumbbed the back of his head, "You are mute, and I need to know how to communicate with you- for work of course."

It was then that Ruma found a friend, they spent countless hours learning her special sign language, and her different coo and vocals that weren't words.

She tought him about the projects, about her people, Vassenhilo's uncle, her life. Every question he had she answered.

It was almost two years before he asked.

"I want to have sex with you,"

The question at first didn't make sense to her, she was just so use to being grabbed. She couldn't answer him at first.

"I want you to give me a yes, on your own accord. I won't treat you like the others, your a person not an object."

It was a few days of comprehending that question that she gave him a yes. She became her favourte to lie with. Though she could tell he was holding himself back, she thought in those days he would claim her. That she would be his.

He never did.

A couple more years and she felt the pain of being rejected, she thought she had done something to make him not want her.

Then she had her last litter of pups. That's when she thought she lost him. Then she lost her pups, and he made it known he didn't go on his own accord.

From then on she had harden her heart up to the fact he would never claim her. Not until resently.

Ruma blinked, coming back to the present out of memory. She turned and gently pulled Deon into the bed, he was so shattered tired he didn't fight. Ruma curled up at his back, waving Ratok closer to her.

He did, moving to where she wanted him. That's where she fell asleep, between her Maeger and her Brude, something she hadn't enjoyed for quite a long time.