🖤 Emotions♟ | angst 💔 | Zosan 💚💛

3 | Why?

Sanji awoke, coughing up sea water. His body was cold and there was hardly any air in his lungs. Sanji managed to open his eyes enough to see a figure standing over him, hands on his chest. 

"What the hell Sanji!?" Zoro shouted. Sanji freaked out when he remembered what happened.

"Z-Zoro," Sanji groaned, now feeling the pain of the sea salt attacking all the cuts on his body.

"The hell did you think you were doing!?" Zoro shouted. Sanji could see that Zoro was also dripping wet with water from the ocean.

"Why the f-fuck did you save me?" Sanji mumbled, trying to straighten up so he could leave.

"Why did I save you? Why did I fucking save you!? YOU'RE MY FRIEND!" Zoro was breathing heavily, Sanji could tell he was angry.

"I didn't ask you to save me!" Sanji shouted back, using all of the strength in his voice.

"I'm not going to stand and watch as you fucking kill yourself!" Zoro shouted. Sanji couldn't tell if it was sea water or a tear rolling down Zoro's cheek as he shouted.

"You don't have the right to stop me from killing myself! It's what everyone would have wanted!" Sanji frantically tried to get up.

"SHUT UP!!" Zoro shouted, grabbing Sanji's shoulders and pinning them to the ground.

"Get off of me!" Sanji shouted back, kicking Zoro's chest. 

"Why did you try to kill yourself!?" Zoro shouted, kneeling on Sanji's legs so he couldn't move. Sanji cried out from pain as he continued to try and squirm away.

"It none of your god damn business!" Sanji cried. He regretted what he said when he saw Zoro grit his teeth. 

"It is my god damn business! Tell me why the fuck you just tried to drown yourself!" Sanji felt tears rolling down his cheeks. It was the first time he had been so terrified of someone in years.

"Please! Please don't hurt me!" Sanji cried as he lifted his arms to cover his face. In that moment everything became silent. The only sound was the water that Sanji wanted to die in swishing peacefully next to them.

"Why?"

...

They stared into each others eyes, Sanji's were terrified, and Zoro's were almost shocked.

"Why would I hurt you Sanji?" Zoro asked, his voice only louder than a whisper. Zoro heard loud sniffling coming from Sanji, he was crying. He was actually crying, he was sad.

"Leave me alone!" Sanji cried through tears. Zoro had backed away, worried that he hurt Sanji physically.

"Sanji, I'm sorry I-,"

"Save it."

Sanji stood up and walked back inside, wiping tears from his eyes as they flooded down his face. He entered his room and fell on his bed, wrapping himself in the sheet and burring his face in the pillow so no one would hear him cry.

Zoro saved him, and now Zoro knew.

Sanji noticed something on his pillow, he looked at it harder. It was a black hair strand. He panicked and ran to the bathroom. He glared at the mirror, his eyes wide open. 

Only the tips of his hair were blonde.

He started to cry harder. He was beginning to go numb, physically and mentally. Sanji shook his head, he didn't want to be like his siblings, completely emotionless and unable to care for anyone.

Sanji turned away from the mirror, disgusted by himself. He walked back to his bed before collapsing.

Oh how he wished that Zoro didn't save him.

To be continued.