[HIATUS]Why The Fuck Am I Here?!![Final Edition][N.S.F.W. 🔞]

Ten: His Story

Hisoka's P.O.V.

Here was my dilemma... this girl who I've only know a little while, made me feel certain things I swore to never again feel. This strong girl .. was making me feel when I barely got over the the perminent scars of my heart.

I didn't trust anyone .. I didn't love anyone... I sought strength and worked tirelessly at it and was rewarded with steady growth in myself and my abilities. When it came down to her however something in me made it impossible for me to forget her. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't do anything normal without her feeling my head. This measly fruit, waiting to be plucked, ran amok in my brain until I couldn't take it  anymore.

    I usually handle my own battles, I refuse to let others step in for my sake, but I keep thinking back to the day where this pointed-eared child saved me. I was already on death's door, looking for anything to eat, crazed by hunger and I need to survive. But those who don't understand the uniqueness tend to be very violent towards those who stand out among the crowd. I was beaten almost to near death until a ray of light greeted me. A brown skin girl littered invisible scars across her face, and any physical inches skin I could see. She stood up to these boys who were way older than her and only a couple years older than me, as if it was nothing to her. I couldn't take my eyes off her little form, I was afraid for a very strange reason that she would be hurt yet she showed me differently. I watched her and amazement as she took control of the situation and blew them all away with just a flick of her hand.

A mere flick had them flying past the trees and in a place on known that I couldn't see, it made me wonder just what exactly was it that decided to save me then and there. How could I find the strength? How could I be as strong as her? Why was she so familiar to me? They were questions that popped into my head all at once as I stared at her in amusement and in wonder. If I could say so, I wonder if this is what love at first sight is like.

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    I wants to lived with a normal family with a loving mother no father. We traveled around mostly, but we almost always seem to come back to one place meteor City. My mother said many times that we come from a place called Glam gas. It was the home my mother left when she went to Coast guard the world before having me. It was me and my sister Hakari who helped her with the hose work, though it was our mother who trained us to be strong....

    Maybe.... Too strong...

    Theu say that good things must ways come to an end, and it all ended when my sister Hakari was murdered. Mother went down hill after that, her training became brutal and she made sure to scream that she refused to have her only son weak like her passed on darling daughter....

    When I didn't get forms right, shed leave me for days without food and told me that it was 'To think about what I did wrong'

    Because I wanted her love and acceptance, because I wanted her to see me as her son and not as a pawn, I went and killed. I came home many times with my pale skin stains so much in blood that I drippd as a ran, and it was at that point she couldnt handle my deranged tendencies....

    I was dropped at the dump directly in the middle of the city of the shooting star, and she never once returned for me... It was then I knew that those who leave me behind were onaidered weak and disposable.... The love I had for my mother was now gone.... The love that I had for my twin sister Hikari was so stripped.... From that moment on, I became Hisoka Morow.... And on the streets I was known as the grim reaper. The name grew until I saught a path of my own.... I wanted strength over love, I wanted power over love... I wanted blood work love... I wanted the thrill over love.... And the only place I knew id be accepted and molded into something strong was in the circus.

    I made my way back to glam gas and kept going until I reached there... I kept going even as those stupid presents decided to take their frustration out on me.... Even when she saved me....

    It also made me realize.... I didn't just go for myself..... Somewhere deep inside, I was pushed to find her.... The magic beast girl with her own story and her own scars...