Letters to Andee

Chapter 11

CHAPTER 11

HARRY'S POV

I've been missing Andee so much. She texts me occasionally and I call her frequently but I want to hug her... I want to feel her in my arms and feel her own arms wrap around me to show me that she still feels the same way. I need to feel her lips. I want her to play with my hair. She's been so distant and I know this is hard for her but I'm starting to get scared.

Andee's still working on how to handle relationships. We've only been together about four months but she still has some trouble. She used to be weird about trusting me but I don't think that's the problem now. I have made my feelings completely clear with her. I haven't been confusing or unclear on anything and I tell her I love her every chance I get. I've never been in love before so this is a big deal for me too. Now I think it's just a matter of her accepting her feelings for me. She doesn't trust herself enough. She's usually pretty good about showing her affection in her own way. She smiles at me and kisses my cheek and tells me things she doesn't tell other people, but she hasn't been doing that so much lately.

I didn't want anything to change when we went on this tour. I wanted us to stay the same and our relationship to grow even stronger but somehow it feels worse. Maybe it's me being away so much? I wonder if Esther's been acting the same way.

I need to talk to Niall.

ANDEE'S POV

I wring my hands together before placing them back on the arms of the chair I'm sitting in. It feels like I've been waiting an hour for them to call my name. Esther's not here yet but she said she would be, I rode in a cab and she was going to meet me and drive us home. She was out with Denise and Theo who were visiting this week; she is so in love with that little boy it kills me.

Today's the day I find out what's wrong with me.

I get to see the results of my endoscopy last week. I can't wait to have this whole mess behind me; I hate it when I have health problems. They pop up out of the blue but they usually disappear just as quickly, I just hope this is one of those times.

"Andee Duncan" a nurse walks out of two swinging doors with a clipboard, full smile. I look up at her and nod, standing and gripping my hands together in front of me to try and hide their shaking. If it's possible the nurse's smile gets even brighter as she gestures for me to go through the door before her.

I really need to woman up. I can do this by myself... I don't need Ess to be with me for everything. But what if they stab me with needles? Oh god.... No I'll be fine.

You'll be fine Andee....

Get over it... You're a big girl, you can do this.

 "Here we are Miss Duncan." She smiles yet again as she leads me into a room. "You can sit on the table while I take your blood pressure." 

I sit down as I'm told and she puts the thing around my arm as I try to calm down.

"Are you a little nervous?" she smiles at me as she stares at the little dial. I nod silently and she smiles at me. "The doctor will be with you shortly." She un-wraps my arm and walks out.

 I twiddle my thumbs and stare at the intricate posters until there's a knock on the door. I stare at the heart poster and think about how much blood gets pumped through the strongest muscle in your body and I feel my feet go numb. You'd think that being a physical therapist would make me better with blood... nope. I still get queasy... ugh.

I stare up at the ceiling and think about anything and everything else before the doctor comes in. What will I have for lunch today? Hopefully Esther will make me something... What is Esther up to? She is always late... Did she have fun with Denise and Theo? Of course she did... What is Harry doing? Probably having fun with the boys... Does he miss me the way I miss him?