Letters to Andee

Chapter 18

CHAPTER 18

ANDEE'S POV

I felt bad immediately after Harry left; especially when I found out he had to leave without saying goodbye. I hate that I get negative and nervous about everything involving Baby. I really want to change and be more positive for Harry but it's so damn hard. I'm so used to pushing people away and not worrying about commitments that I don't know how to handle any of this. It shows more than I would like.

The boys come home today for their super long break and to say Ess and I are excited would be an understatement. We've missed them so much and to celebrate their homecoming we, and by "we" I mean Ess, is making them dinner and that's why I'm at the airport alone to pick up Harry and Niall. Louis is catching a flight to Manchester to plan some things for the wedding with El. Liam is going home to see his family and he's going on a date with a girl we haven't met yet named Sofia. They've known each other for a long time I guess but we're all happy to see him wandering back into the dating world. Zayn said he didn't want to be picked up because he's going to disappear like he usually does on breaks. It's only been a few days but I can't wait to see Harry.

My hormones have been on a roller coaster since I found out I've been pregnant and I still haven't managed to control them but in this moment I really want a hug and I might just have to buy a ticket so I can get past security so I can see him sooner.

I don't know what's gotten into me, a month ago I would've been shy and waited for Harry to come to me and maybe I would have let him kiss me but this is ridiculous... hormones are scary.

Just as I'm about to turn to go to wait in line for a ticket I see Niall's blonde hair and Harry's mop. It's gotten so long and I love it.

"Harry!" I squeal accidentally and immediately his head snaps up and a smile overtakes his tired features. He pulls his bag tighter over his shoulder as he turns to jog towards me. I start to jog in slow motion and he laughs, dimples popping, before he reaches me.

Without hesitation I throw my arms around his waist and nuzzle into his sweater. I can feel his necklace under the material and I could melt in the warmth that envelops me when he wraps his long arms around my body. I feel the hesitation in his movements as he reaches one hand up to gently stroke my hair and I sigh at the gesture. He then lays his cheek on top of my head, arms tightening around me.

I can't believe he's going to be home for two months and I don't have to deal with him leaving and coming home, I am so overwhelmed with happiness and before I understand what's happening I'm crying. I unwrap one of my arms and put a hand up to my mouth to muffle my cries.

"Woah, woah, babe what's wrong?" Harry pulls away and looks at me before quickly glancing around to see who is around us. "There are paps here if they see you crying they'll make up rumors." He whispers as he pulls me into his chest again to hide my tears. Niall steps forward to block me from the paps and I take in a shaky breath.

"I'm sorry... I just can't believe you're here..." I hiccup and Harry chuckles slightly. "My hormones are ridiculous..." I shake my head and he kisses my forehead.

Harry continues to hug me until my face turns back to normal and we can walk out without too many questions.

"Ess is at home making dinner!" I cheer when we get in the car and I faintly hear Niall cheer in the backseat but I'm too distracted by Harry grabbing my hand in his and squeezing it lightly.

Niall's phone rings in the backseat and when he picks it up it's made known that it's his father on the line. Ess and Niall are going to Ireland tomorrow morning and they're probably hammering out details, but this is the perfect time to get my apology off of my chest.