The Enchanted Ones

Trouble

Winslow

Shit.

How could I let this happen?

Why the hell did I allow myself to sleep with him? I mean, it was the best night I've ever had in my life but I can't do this. I shouldn't do this.

For both of us.

We're both going to get hurt in the end. And I don't want to break his heart, or mine.

I can't believe I let this happen. "Damnit." I slam my fists on the shower sink.

I want this to happen. I always did.

But I should've stopped it. It can't happen and I knew it from the start.

"Oh and Winslow, don't fall for him."

My father's words rush over me. I sigh. I have to stop this. It can't happen again. As much as I want him and as much as I like it I can't do this to him.

Shit I've fallen for him.

Hard.

I can stop this before it's too late.

Focus Winslow, you can do this. Find a way not to hurt both you and him. If you like him, protect him.

I take a big breath and exit the bathroom.

"Are you all packed and ready to go?" His voice comes closer and I turn to face him,

"Yeah."

"Whoa, what was that?" He comes closer and I try not to look into his eyes as I say,

"Everett, what are we doing?"

"What do you mean? We're... packing? The mission was a success, I can't wait to go home and see dad being proud at us." He laughs, dimples popping out while looking at me. I look away and lower my voice,

"No, I mean this," I move my finger in the little space between us, "Us." I look in his eyes but regret it immediately, because they're looking back at me with sadness and confusion.

Something tells me he already knows what I want to tell him.

"I don't care what we're doing, all I know is that im happy." He backs up a bit.

"No don't say that." I close my eyes, "Everett..."

"Don't finish that sentence, Winslow. I don't know what you want to say but I know it's not good."

I bite my lip and avoid his gaze, "I can't let this happen, Everett."

"I said stop it, Winslow." He looks away too.

"This has to stop before it's too late." I mubble quietly, still not looking at him.

"Why? Why are you doing this?" His voice pleads.

"We're both going to end up hurt!"

"How do you know that?" His voice increases and I swallow the urge to just stop and let things be. But I can't. I really wish I could. I wish I wasn't from a completely different community, I wish I wasn't here for a mission, I wish we weren't opposites.

"Because it's me and you." I manage to get out.

"Exactly, Winslow. It's me and you." His eyes fall closed, "Do you want me or not?" He says when he opens them and I throw a sad chuckle,

"Of course I do! But I don't want to want you. I can't want you." I say the last part a little more quietly and make the mistake of looking at him. His eyes. The most beautiful green eyes I've fallen into. I can't do this to him, "What happened here, must stay here." I say with all seriousness and walk to my suitcase.