In the Shadows (Mattheo Riddle)

chapter 20

I sat there, holding my knees, guarding my door from the many who tried to get in to check on me. I didn't want to be bothered. I had no possible explanation on why I just went insane like that.

I finally got up, and made my way back to my bed. I needed to sleep it off. I didn't like the state I was in at all. I didn't like this person I was in this moment. I should've just went to breakfast, without my wand I would've been fine.

As soon as I managed to get comfortable, my door swung open. I didn't even bother to lift my head.

"Malfoy! Get the fuck up you lunatic!" He shouted angrily.

"Riddle get the fuck out of my room I am so serious" I sat up

"You can't be right in the head! What the fuck did she do to deserve that?" He looked angry, confused and somehow a little satisfied.

"You're right, I should've landed you! You're a disgusting person! With me just the night before, and then her?" I said disgustingly. I was disgusted. I was hurt.

"So you landed her for that? Just say your fucking jealous Amelia!" He never called me by my first name. It shot right through me. It sounded so right coming out of his mouth, but so wrong at the same time.

"How could I ever be jealous of greengrass! I know my fucking worth Riddle, and I know she'll never fucking compare to me!" I was shouting now. My anger was eating me alive.

He just stood there smirking, he wanted to hear me say the words "I'm jealous, I want you" I would turn purple before I ever said those words.

"Just say it Malfoy! Why else would you punch her in the face!" He tried so hard to get it out of me.

"She's a whore and she deserved it, now get the fuck out of my room. I never want to speak to you again you asshole!" I was now pointing, extremely red in the face.

"You're not going to find anyone better than me Amelia, ice that hand won't you?" Theres my name again. And him pretending to care about my hand. How pathetic.

"I promise it won't be hard to find a boy who doesn't sleep with another girl a night after me!" I slammed the door after him.

How could he think I can't find someone better? He was the worst person a girl could ever go for, it would not be hard to top him. I'm pretty sure the next boy I cross in the hallway will be better than him.

I couldn't face anyone. I stayed in my dorm the rest of the day. I wasn't in the right head.

It was at this moment I realized just how much I fell for him. As much as I hated it, as much as I didn't want to come to terms with it. I've seen sides to him no one else had. I knew his darkest secret. He was vulnerable with me. He wasn't Mattheo Riddle, son of the dark lord. He was just Mattheo. A boy from a broken home, who wanted so desperately to be loved. And I couldn't believe, for a moment in time, that I wanted to be the one to love him.