In the Shadows (Mattheo Riddle)

chapter 49

We both just stared at the ceiling, until we drifted into a sleep. My mind was racing. I had to kill someone. I had to take another life. Let alone, the life of a man who believes in me. Who seen me for more than a Malfoy.

I woke to a knock on my door, I sat up and looked around. Mattheo was curled into my side, and Pansy was sound asleep. I gently crawled out of bed, walking towards my door.

I opened it to Draco. Needless to say, I tried to slam the door right back in his face, but he forced his foot in.

"Amelia, just a second please" he begged.

I stepped out of the room, "Their sleeping so make it quick" I hissed.

I seen his eyebrow raise when I said they, but I seen he quickly answered his own question.

"Don't do it. You can't. You don't have it in you." I've never seen this look on his face before.

"Don't play hero now Draco!" I scoffed. "I have to or hell kill me! All because of you!" I pushed him.

"i never knew all of this would happen Lia I mean it I am so sorry but you can't." He reached for my hands. I pulled them back.

"Dont tell me what I can do! I have no fucking choice! Daddy dearest saved you, and gave me this task. So go ahead, live your life dray, don't worry about me anymore." I went to walk back into my room.

"Amelia I love you!" He shouted.

"You don't know love, Draco." I slammed the door in his face.

When I turned back into my room I seen mattheo reaching next to him, looking for me.

"Who was that?" Pansy asked, with a very tired voice.

"Your stupid boyfriend." I spat as I walked into the bathroom.

"What the fuck did he want?!" Mattheo was very awake now.

"wish me luck I guess" I screamed back, trying to wash my face and wake my self up.

"i'm going to fucking murder him." He scoffed.

When I walked back out, the look on Mattheos face said it all. I knew this was the last thing he wanted me to do, it was the last thing I wanted to do.

Many different scenarios ran through my head, what if I didn't kill him? What if I was to die instead? Would it be so bad? I came to realize, if I didn't, one of the boys would have too. As much as I couldn't do this task, I couldn't have one of them do it. 

I knew in time, I could get over it. They wouldn't. They seem tough, but their not. There are nights Mattheos panic attacks wake me up, and it takes me hours to get him back to sleep. Or when I sleep in his room, Theo screams from his dreams wake me up, and I have to rock him back to sleep. These boys are broken. Only I could see that, I wasn't going to break them anymore.

Hours passed. I spent all day in bed, in Mattheos arms, enjoying my last few hours of normalcy. He played with my hair, rubbed my back. I just laid there. Dreading what was to come.

Before I knew it, there was a knock at my door. Mattheo and I jumped at the same time. He rushed to answer it.

Snape.

Fuck.

"its time" he stood in my door way, emotionless.

"If she gets hurt I swear I will-" Mattheo started to get in his face.

"I know Riddle, back down." Snape dismissed him.

I stopped at the doorway, gave mattheo a give kiss and I was off.

I was off to kill a man.