In the Shadows (Mattheo Riddle)

chapter 52

"What was that?" Enzo questioned. I didn't realize how low I was actually speaking.

"He knew." I said a little louder.

"who knew?" Mattheo grabbed my knee

"Knew what?" Theo added.

"He knew I was going to" I stopped talking. "he smiled at me." I was still zoned out.

"How would he have known that Amelia?" Regulus gently asked me.

"i don't know okay? He just did. He told me he knows more than I think. He told me it was okay." I bursted into tears, yet again.

"Amelia you did what you had to do." Mattheo tried to comfort me.

"I was so close to not doing it." I stopped.  "My vow started burning and I- and I  knew if I second guessed myself one more time, I- I, I would drop dead right there." I brought my teary eyes to them. "I just killed someone."

"You had too. You had no choice okay?" Enzo said, in a very soft voice, as if it was supposed to calm me.

I felt my panic taking over, I started pacing the room, practically pulling my own hair out.

"Its because of him!" I started shouting. On a continues loop. The boys looked at me like I had absolutely lost it now.

I darted for the boys dorms stairs, and they all followed like ducks in a row. They had no idea where I was going. But I did. I knew exactly where I wanted to go.

"Amelia slow down." "Amelia stop it" I heard their whispers from behind me.

I absolutely was not stopping.

I kicked the door open, to find him fast asleep.

My brother.

The door opening like that had jolted him and Blaise right away. I really didn't give a flying fuck about Blaise in this moment.

"You complete asshole!" I screamed ripping him out of bed.

All the boys stood shocked behind me, Blaise just stared in our direction in a sleepy haze.

"Look at me!" I shouted, with blood shot eyes and shaking hands. "Look at what you did to me you bastard!" I slammed my hands hard on his chest. Over. And over. And over again.

"I fucking hate you!" I cried. "It should've been you!" I kept repeating with every connection of my hand to his chest.

"Amelia okay thats enough" mattheo tried to get me off of him. "Amelia come on!" He started to shout. He grabbed me and picked me up like a child, I was still kicking and screaming. I seen his face, Draco's for split second, he looked scared, almost remorseful.

Mattheo carried me back to his room and didn't put me down until the door was shut behind us.

I once again melted to the floor.

How did I just do what I just did?

How did he know I was going to?