Derisive Thunder (Ei[Raiden Shogun] X Fem Reader)

Chapter 17: Strange Dream

[Y/n's PoV]

That night, I'd dream of Ei's lips making contact with my own once more. It was a mixture of a warm, sweet breeze and the sensation of Ei's tongue against mine.

I could feel her arms around me as she continued to caressed my lips.

Her voice was soft and gentle.

"...Do not blame me for what you feel. You know that I only did what was necessary to test your strength and resolve. This world will not hesitate to hurt you. You need to be able to keep yourself calm, Y/n."

"I am calm. You should stop this."

She scoffed, "You are not calm at all. If I were to kiss you again, you would lose yourself once more in the heat of passion. You still do not understand— this world is not something that you, as a temperamental deity, can comprehend."

"You are always trying to fight what cannot be fought. Do you think your feelings and desires are a match for eternity?"

After she says that, I stayed silent, indicating that she was right while I continued to let her kiss me.

Her lips landed on mine once more, but this time, her caresses were more intense. She ran her fingers around my neck as she moaned slightly. She pressed her body against mine as her tongue moved to explore my mouth again.

"It felt like ages since I had felt a touch from another person."

I whispered while my face was filled with emotions that I had thought was long dead.

"What are you waiting for? Why not give in to the heat of your emotions? Why do you still resist it, Y/n?"

She pulled away but she kept her face close to mine and gently nibbled my lower lip.

"If only... You could take a step closer to eternity..."

I averted my gaze.

"I can't, for my mind yearns for the revenge of my sister. I simply cannot disobey it."

"...But what does your heart wish for, Y/n?"

She kissed me again but there was a sense that this kiss was very different from the previous one— as if she was trying to communicate something to me through my lips.

"I don't know..."

After breaking the kiss she grips my neck.

"If only your heart knew what you truly wanted. I must admit that it's a bit cute seeing you like this, you know. Your face is red and you're trembling. You're afraid, but you still want more."

Ei smiled before letting out a single, quiet giggle. My heart beat even faster as a wave of uneasiness wash over me.

"Did you know that this feeling is your body's response to something it recognized as a threat? Your heart beats faster as a precaution that you need to be prepared to face off against an enemy. How interesting, isn't it?"

I remained silent as Ei continued to nibble my lip, harder than ever before. With each passing moment, I felt more and more overwhelmed by the intensity. The feeling of being under her control was something that I couldn't deny.

Until I remembered something.

"Wait... Enemy..?"

I finally snapped out and returned to my senses as I saw her smirked mischievously and her grip on my throat tightened that I could barely breathe.

It was a trap. I realized that everything here was a trap, but it was too late.

It felt as if I was dying of a lack of oxygen as she kept the pressure on my throat, not letting a single bit of air in.

Stop...

Stop this...

Stop..!

Suddenly, I finally had woken up. I felt my heart pounding violently in my chest, and sweat covered my face as I wiped my mouth.

I was panting hard so I looked around my surroundings. Right, I was back in the cave of Mt. Kanna.

I was still alone, and it didn't seem like there was anyone around me either.

It was just me, the wind, the sky, and the memory of a goddess. I tried remembering the dream but I can no longer recall anything except for Ei, though I couldn't shake the feeling that something was missing, as if there was something more to it, or that I had missed something important.

I felt frustrated that I could remember nothing except her. It felt as if something had been erased from my mind, and yet it was still there, haunting me from the depths of my unconscious mind. The memory was there, but I couldn't remember it.

Why couldn't I remember?

Maybe I just had to live with this sense of loss forever, wondering what else had happened and what I missed, and if it was significant.

I could still hear her voice though, echoing in my head. She was whispering to me, and I couldn't tell if it was real or just illusionary.

She was asking of what I feared, what I missed, what I really wanted.

My mind was in a complete fog, but the lingering memory of a dream was nagging me. Something felt wrong about it, but I couldn't put my finger on what exactly.

I sat there in frustration. After a while, I finally gave up trying to remember the rest of the dream. Maybe it didn't matter after all. Maybe it really was just a dream.

I got up from my perch, in the cave entrance, the wind still gently blowing through the grass outside. It took a few more moments before I fully shook off the strange feeling of nostalgia and uneasiness.

"A dream about her that I couldn't even recall... Heh, such stupidity. Why am I dreaming about the person who killed my sister anyway...?"

"Most of all... "

I placed my hand on my chest, feeling my rapid heartbeat.

"Why... Do my heart suddenly longed for her to be here right now..?"