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Chapter 13

-TW:MENTIONS OF CHILD LOSS.-

The next morning Eddie woke me up to breakfast in bed. "Good morning fiancé." He said, giving me a kiss on the cheek. "Goodmorning baby." I reply. He sits on the bed, next to me. "Are you okay mi mundo?" He asks, "no. My bio parents are coming over tonight after work, I can't stand them. They where always so horrible to me, and I want to tell them about us, about our family. And I want them too know that my parents are Bobby and Athena, not them. I was thinking maybe I could bring them too the firehouse tomorrow and they can meet my FAMILY." "Okay amor, I think that's a good idea, but only when your ready. I think coming out to them will be good for you, but no matter what I'm always here. I'm one phone call away, and if you bring them too the firehouse tomorrow I can meet them, i want to meet them before Chris tho if that's okay." He replies, holding my hand. "Of course, I wouldn't want Chris in any uncomfortable situations, so we will see how they react to us and when we tell them he has cp. if they react bad I am here for YOU. I am always going to be on YOUR side okay? I love you." I reply, kissing his cheek. "Now, let's go get ready for work."

When we arrived at work, Bobby pulled me aside to talk to me. "Hey kid, how you feeling about your parents coming." "Not good pops. What if they're horrible to Eddie?" I reply, hanging my head in shame. "Hey, it doesn't matter what they think of him, of you two. You love him, he loves you, and me, chim, hen and Athena love you both. And you guys have Christopher. Their opinion of you is irrelevant okay? Come here." he says, pulling me into a hug. "Thanks dad." "Your welcome kiddo."

I spent the rest of the day dreading the night ahead. Maddie was spamming my phone with texts like 'remember evan, behave.' Like i am still 6. I didn't wanna go see them, i wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. But I had no choice. My shift finished, I'd said my goodbyes to Eddie for the evening and was already on my way home, my 'parents' where already there with maddie and chimney, who left earlier today. I arrived at my house where I was greeted by my mom, dad, maddie and chim. "Hello my boy, got any girls on the go?" My dad said, that made me kinda angry, i have no idea why. "no." I reply sternly. "Hello Evan dear." My mom says, giving me a fake smile. "Come sit down evan, dinners ready." Maddie says, as she walks over to the table. I sat next to chimney and maddie, my parents where on the other side of the table. "We are so proud of you maddie darling, a boyfriend, a baby, a stable job, ugh your just the perfect angel." My mom said. "Thank you momma." She replies, "we have your baby box here darling, for jee." My dad continues the conversation, handing her a box with the name 'MADDIE' on the front. "Awhh that's so nice mom, dad, thank you guys." She says, looking through the box. "So cute". "When do i get mine?" I ask, smiling. "Oh Evan honey. We Uhm" my mom struggles to find the words, and that's when I realise, i don't fucking have one. Wow. "I don't have one do i." I say, anger boiling inside me. "no sweetie, we only have one for Daniel and maddie." Mom says. "Who the fucks Daniel?" I ask, pissed off. "Our brother evan. He died, you where born so.." maddie starts, "don't say it maddie." My mom snaps, "he has to know !!" She replies. "You where born to save him Evan. It didn't work. He died after you where born, you where to young to remember." She finishes. "so your fucking telling me i wasn't wanted? You only wanted Daniel and maddie? That makes sense, that's why you've treated me like SHIT my ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE. THATS WHY U TREAT ME LIKE IM NOTHING BUT A DISAPPOINTMENT, YOU KNOW IM IN THERAPY BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS. AND MADDIE, I DID NOT EXCEPT YOU TO HIDE THIS FROM ME. IM FUCKING LEAVING, DONT BE HERE WHEN IM BACK, ANY OF YOU, I HATE YOU ALL. IKNOW LOSING A KIDS SAD AND IM SORRY I REALLY AM BUT YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO HIDE IT FROM ME." I screamed at them, i hated them for it, that's why they didn't love me, i was never meant to be alive in the first place, and to be honest i wish I wasn't. I felt like a bit of a selfish dick but I was hurt. So fucking hurt. I stormed out my flat, rain pouring, i had no jacket but I didn't care, i started walking away, i had no idea where I was going, but I wasn't going back there. Not right now.