secrets.

Chapter 16

TW:SUICIDE MENTIONS.

-Eddies pov-

It's now 10pm, no one's heard anything from Buck. I hate that he just stormed off but I don't blame him, and right now, I'm so worried about him. He won't even answer me, Chris text him once but he didn't respond. He better be alright.

-bucks pov-

Chris was texting me. I decided to answer after an hour, only to Chris tho. 'Hey buddy, I miss you millions too, I love you okay? Do not forget that, ever.' I had no idea what to do. Was I going to do it? Was I really going to kill myself out here? I wanted to, so badly. But I didn't wanna leave Eddie, or Bobby, or Athena OR CHRIS !! But I also couldn't deal with the fact my parents didn't love me. I was broken, i felt unloved. I just wanted this all over. Maddie hated me, chimney hated me, my parents did. I have nothing.

-eddies pov-

"DAD BUCK ANSWERED" I heard Chris shout from his room, I ran in and grabbed his iPad, the text read 'hey buddy, I miss you millions too, I love you okay? Do not forget that. Ever.' Omg. Buck was going to kill himself, thoughts started racing, I called 911 and "MY BOYFRIENDS MISSING HE SENT A TEXT TO OUR KID SAYING TO NEVER FORGET HE LOVED HIM, PLEASE SEND SOMEONE!!" "Okay sir we have police headed to you right now." By the time polive got here, I'd already called everyone else to come over. "Hello Eddie Diaz?" "Yes yes come in!!" I say, panicked. "So your boyfriend is missing yes?" They ask. "Yeah, he sent this text, he's been gone since 12pm" I answer. "Okay we will track the location the text was sent from, may we take this?" "Ofcourse" please be okay Evan. I needed my boy to be okay. I can't imagine life without him.

-bucks pov-

I've been over thinking my decision for hours now, the time was now 12:03am, I'd been sat, in Bobby's car, on a far away cliff, for 10 fucking hours. I had no idea what to do, I wanted to die, but a small part of me wanted to live. I wanted to live for Eddie, for Chris and for my REAL parents. But I wanted to die, to take all my pain away. Was I a coward? Am I pathetic? It doesn't matter, it will all be over soon. Last time I spoke to anyone was when I text Chris, I needed him too know I love him, and if he's angry, if eddies angry with me then that's okay, I don't blame them. Thoughts where racing through my mind, even chimney was texting me. Hen called loads, like everyone else. I assumed they'd told the police by now, but it doesn't matter, when they find me, I will be dead. I decided to get out the car, stop being a pussy and just do it, no one loved me anyway, not really. I was meaningless to this world. Maybe I would have better luck next time. I begin edging closer and closer to the edge, before finally reaching it. I looked down at the water bellow me. I was about 30ft up, I wasn't scared tho, I did this all the time, only difference is this time I would 100% die. No safety gear this time. I was in the middle of saying my final words too the world when I heard several footsteps. I stepped back from the edge and swiftly turned around, where I saw the police, Eddie, Athena, Bobby and hen. "Mr Buckley, please step back from the edge." One of the officers said, getting closer to me. "Please don't come any closer, I will jump." I say, shaking. "Evan please amor." Eddie says, tears falling down his rosè cheeks. I hated seeing him upset, but I didnt know what to do. "Son, I love you, no one here is angry with you, please just come back to mine, you can stay with us for awhile baby." Bobby says, "yeah love, your loved, please don't do this." Athena adds. "think about your son Buck, he's destroyed by this." Eddie cry's, "he misses you more than anything, he couldn't cope with you gone forever." I had been thinking about Chris. "Of course I thought about my boy, and all of you. I am not doing this to hurt any of you, I'm doing it to save you." "What do you mean baby." Athena asks. "I want you all to be happy, and no one's happy when I'm here." I say, now sobbing. "That's untrue Evan, we are all happier because of YOU. YOU SAVED ME. I love you babe please don't leave me alone in this world , i cant live if i don't have you." Eddie cried, I couldn't leave him? What am I doing? I ran over to him and wrapped my arms around him and sobbed. "I'm so fucking sorry, what the fuck was I thinking? I'm such a bad dad, a bad boyfriend, a bad son. I'm so fucking sorry." I cry into his shoulder. He probably hated me now. "Hey no you aren't, you are hurting love. I will help you through this, but you need to stay with your mom and pops for a bit okay?"He says, holding me so close. "Okay."