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Chapter 17

The next morning I woke up in my room at Athena's, the memories of the night before still fresh in my mind. I walk into the living room where I'm greeted by a hug from Athena. "Oh my baby boy, I was so worried about you darling boy." She says, holding me tighter. "I'm really sorry about that momma. I should've manned up." "No angel, do not say that, you came away from that edge and chose to fight on, you are so strong." She says. "Yeah son, your my brave boy." Bobby says, I hug him tight, may and harry run up and join the hug. "Awh I love you guys." This was my family, right here. "I need to see Christopher, I need to apologise to Eddie." I say, I feel my heart racing. "He hates me doesn't he?" "No angel, he's bringing Chris over at lunch time, he doesn't hate you." Athena answers, that calmed me, if he hated me then I would sob. My life would be nothing without him.

Lunchtime rolled around and as soon as I heard the door I raced to get it, it was Eddie. "Hello. Do you hate me?" I ask, teary eyes. "No my vida, I don't, and neither does he." Eddie answers, "I love you Buck !!" Chris says, hugging me. I pick him up and hug him tight. "I love you more buddy." I say, putting him down. I grab Eddies face and smash my lips into his, we kiss at the door for a moment. "Ewww gross" harry shouts. "Rude!!" I say, running over to him and throwing him in the air. I caught Eddie smiling at me, maybe he really isn't mad. We sit and eat lunch, Bobby made Mac and cheese, (my absolute favourite) and we talk. I apologise to everyone again, I feel so guilty. "Ev, if you don't stop apologise istg, te basarè hasta que no puedas hablar." "Ew dad that's gross" Chris says, "what did he say?" Harry asks. "He said "I will kiss you until you ca" "OKAY EAT UP !!" Eddie shouts out of embarrassment, "I'll hold you too whatever the rest of that sentance was Diaz." I say, smirking. "Oh god I'm EATING HERE." Bobby says, shaking his head. "Ahh sorry pops."

After lunch, harry was playing video games with Chris, may went out, Bobby was shopping and Athena was doing paperwork at the table. And I was in my room with Eddie. "So Diaz. What did you say earlier hmm" I ask, moving ontop of him. "I said I'd kiss you until you can't speak, Buckley." He replies, "go on then." I say, he connects our lips and we kiss passionately. I moan into the kiss as he begins moving down my jawline and neck, holding eye contact for Aslong as possible. "Shhh no one can hear." He says, kissing my neck in a way he knows makes me moan, I tried to hold everything in but I just couldn't. "Someone's desperate." He says, connecting our lips, "you know it" I say inbetween kisses, we stop kissing after awhile, reminding ourselves there's kids In the other room, awake. "So Buck, how are you today, scared the shit out of me." He asks, "I'm fine, I'm sorry for what I did." "Stop apologising." "Are you sure you don't hate me?" I ask, he freezes for a second. The silence kills me, "why would I hate you." He says, worried. "For what I did yesterday, I almost left you." "You where clearly hurting babe, I love you. I could never hate you okay? Don't think like that. EVER" he says, hugging me tight. I loved the smell of him, the feeling of him holding me tight, I know that sounds weird, but it was so comforting to me. "I love you."

Later that night, after Eddie went home, I was thinking about mine and eddies wedding, where it would be, when, invites and our honeymoon. I decided to stay up all night planning it, and after I'd done, at about 6:30am, I sent it all too him. He was working until 7pm, so he probably wouldn't answer until then. I was off for 2 weeks, I hated it. I missed everyone, I missed my job. I missed my sister. She was a cunt, along with my bio parents but I still missed her, and chim.

At 7:30pm, Eddie called me, "OMG YOU PLANNED THE WEDDING? IM SO HAPPY !!" He said "YEAH I HOPE YOUR NOT MAD, I HAVENT BOOKED ANYTHING YET I WANTED YOUR OPINION FIRST." "OMG I LOVE IT ALL, LETS DO IT IN JUNE !!" "THATS IN 6 MONTHS EDDIE." "SO" "OKAY FINE, I WILL BOOK IT, GOODBYE LOVE" "GOODBYE HUSBAND." I could get used to that.