Just the way you are- Leah Williamson

It's better for both of us

i woke up at 5 am because i had a goal, i wanted to watch the sunrise with leah
I almost shook Leah awake but she wouldn't get up
Elena: "Leah there's a spider on your pillow"
Leah: "WHAT WHERE?"
Elena: "just joking come with me"
Leah: "What do you want Elena"
Elena: "come on move"
she got up and we left the tent
we walked a few meters until we came to a hill
Leah: "You wake me up at 5 a.m. so we can go up a hill?"
Elena: "yes and no"
we sit down on the hill and talked for half an hour
Leah: "omg look at the sunrise"
I just smiled
Leah: "ahhhh you wanted to watch the sunrise with me, now I get it"
Elena: "It took a long time"
We sat there until 7 and talked and laughed and just enjoyed the sunrise
we went back to the others
Beth: "There they are"
Georgia: "Where have you been?"
Elena: "just chilled"
Beth: "You guys just-"
Sarina: "Good morning ladies, I hope you all had a good night, we'll pack our things now and go back and then have the first unit in the gym until then"
We packed up the tents again, which was clearly easier than putting them up
we then had the unit in the gym and i was fully focused until a certain 1.70 tall, blonde woman came up to me
Leah: "how many times do I tell you now that you look hot when you work out"
I smiled and wanted to say something but then Jordan came
Jordan: "Hey Leah, can you help me with the bench press?"
Leah: "Yes, no problem"
You can tell Jordan still has feelings
And now I'm unfocused again
Anyway I'm not a jealous person, so I'm not...
Georgia: "looks like your girlfriend has someone new"
Elena: "shut up G"
Georgia:,,uhhhh now leah help her"
she acts as if i don't have a lot of kilos on my legs right now
Elena: "Georgia..."
Georgia: "And now they laugh together"
I just kept going, but she knows it sucks
Georgia: "They look at each other in love"
I got up and pushed her away
Elena: "stop it mate that's not funny"
Sarina: "Ladies, please, can you concentrate on your work"
I was so angry I could have killed her in that moment
I put my air pods in and just trained
The physio also came in and funnily enough there was a new face to be seen
and wtf she looked really good
I'm in a semi-relationship, which is why flirting a little doesn't hurt
I mean Leah is with her ex right now
I went to her and explained to her that I had something on my wrist
Elena: "Hey new face"
???:,,yeah I'm the new physio"
Elena: "What's your name?"
???: "Emma"
Elena:,,Hey emma you are very welcome here"
Emma: "why did you come here"
Elena: "I have a pain in my wrist"
Emma: "okay let's see"
we sat down together and she looked at my wrist
She took my hand, looked into my eyes and smiled
Elena: "You have beautiful eyes"
Emma: "okay we'll make a deal, i'll meet you later in the physio room and in return you don't pretend you're hurt anymore ok?"
Elena: "Sounds like a deal"
Emma: "Don't tell anyone or I'll be out of here as quickly as I got in"
Elena: "my mouth is closed"
I smiled at her and walked back
Leah: "What was that?"
Elena: "What?"
Leah: "Georgia first, now this?"
Elena: "What is it, I just hurt my wrist"
Leah: "Elena you've only trained your legs so far next time bring a better excuse"
Elena: "Not True "
Leah: "we are together don't forget that"

Leah's pov
i wanted to stay with elena but i didn't want to be rude to jordan so i helped jordan
But elena wasn't interested either, at least that's what I thought
Georgia was talking to her the whole time and all I could see was how irritated she looked
Suddenly she got up and just pushed Georgia and then said something to her
bruh she looked pissed
She even has her jaw clenched and she only does it when she's angry or hurt
I have to say I've been trying to focus on making sure Jordan doesn't die but Elena looks really hot
'God Leah focus on Jordan now' I said to myself
I was then done and about to go back to work when I saw Elena and some new one apparently sitting to the side and smiling at each other
I admit I'm a very jealous person but I'm only jealous of what's mine
and unfortunately I know these looks from Elena
those are the flirty looks
Suddenly Beth was standing next to me
Beth: "Looks like you have competition"
Leah: "what why no they just talk"
Beth:,, Really? Elena just told her she has beautiful eyes"
Leah: "what really?"
Beth: "As much as I like Elena and she really loves you...give her time in the relationship and don't be disappointed if she tries to flirt with other people, she doesn't know that relationship feeling"
Leah: "Yes, but that's why people talk"
Beth: "Yes mate I'll go back"
Leah: "Thanks bye"
I was kind of angry and confused at the same time like first the thing with Georgia now what's actually going on here"

Elena's pov
Leah: "we are together don't forget that"
Elena:,,nahhh we are kind of together"
Leah: "Are you kidding me? are you serious?"
Elena: "Just let me have fun"
Leah: "Elena you watched the sunrise with me this morning and told me you loved me, that's so stupid"
Sarina:,,I'll say it for the last time, please talk during the breaks
Leah: "wow..."
she turned and just left
I admit... it was unnecessary
and dumb
I'm in a relationship with the woman I've loved since I was 15 why do I always ruin what makes me happy?
she looked so sad, it hurts so much
I want her to be happy and I'm doing the complete opposite
I just wanted to distract myself, but that's no solution
Why do I always realize this when it's too late
god i hate myself for that
The day was over and we all went to our rooms
i didn't say a word to leah, we didn't even make eye contact
we went to the room in complete silence
Leah: "I have to tell you something"
Elena: "Me too"
Leah: "You first"
Elena: "at the same time okay"
Leah: "Maybe we should take a break"
Elena: "I love you and- wait what..."
we said in unison
Elena:,,no no no no no break, I don't need a break"
Leah: "but me"
I touched her
Elena:,,no...no why"
Leah: "It doesn't work"
Elena: "Leah what...it works please you know it does"
Leah: "It's better for both of us"
Elena:,, no what are you talking about..."
I said
Leah: "..."
she just looked into my eyes, there was nothing, no pain, no love nothing...
Elena: "That's stupid leah,you're not leaving now. We're in a relationship and I have something to say here too."
Leah: "It's just a break"
Elena: "Leah..."
Leah: "I think it would be better if I slept by Georgia tonight"
I was speechless....
she just took her things and left me there
Elena: "fucking idiot, why can't you even do it right"
I said to myself.
Beth: "Hey are you ok?"
She was standing there by the door frame with her bedding because she switched so leah could sleep at Georgias
Elena:,,no, you know...all that, that's so sick like what...what did I do wrong, why is everything in this fucking world just against us, I was happy once, once and now I am back here, what's going on..."
I kept getting louder
Beth: "Elena please shut up"
Elena: "thats so stupid "
I said and walked past Beth
I went out I didn't even have a phone with me or anything
Funnily enough, I didn't sleep a second
I got into the room at 6am
Beth was sleeping
I thought
In any case, she slept
Beth: "bro where have you been"
Elena: "I don't know"
beth: "go to sleep mate"
Elena: "yes"
I haven't slept by the way