Just the way you are- Leah Williamson

good or bad?

Leahs POV

Leah: "idiot"
Elena:,,hey!"
She could have just kissed me right now.
Is she really something more serious with Ona or am I just imagining it?
Elena: "Dude, I missed you"
Leah: "I didn't missed you"
she gave me her ‚are you serious look'
I just laughed.
Elena: "You can sleep on the floor today"
Leah: "you wish"
Elena: "Okay, let's make an deal "
Leah: "Oh God"
Elena: "This is my site and this is yours. You pay me 30 if you come to my site and 35 ​​if you have more blanket than me."
Leah: "Nope"
Elena: "yes"
Leah: "no"
Elena: "okay"
She said and took my hand and shook it.
Leah: "What was that?"
I asked laughing.
Elena: "You agreed to the deal."
Leah: "Just let me sleep"
Elena: "then luckily I don't have to hear your voice anymore"
Leah: "ass"
Elena: "Night idiot"
Leah: "pfff"
Suddenly it's so quiet dude...
somehow weird.
I'm so cold but if I asked her now if she wanted to cuddle that would be pretty gay.
but I'm gay.
Why do I think so much?
I turned to her and watched her sleep until I was caught.
She didn't open her eyes but somehow she knew I was looking at her.
Elena: "Staring is rude"
I just laughed.
Leah: "You look cute when you sleep"
She opened her eyes and looked at me.
Elena: "Dude stop flirting"
Leah: "I only told the truth"
Elena: "You can't play with me, you know that"
Leah: "yeah I know but you can play with me"
Elena: "yeah but I don't like to play"
she said and turned around.
Leah: "Yeah...I like that about you"
I said and turned around.
Leah: "night"
She said nothing and turned around again.
She put her hand around my stomach and pulled me towards her.
Leah: "So I'm the one flirting"
Elena: "No darling, but you have to pay me my money now"
Leah: "Hey, it was in the contract if I went over the side but you pulled me there"
I said and turned to her.
we were 10 cm apart.
Her hand was now on my back.
Leah: "I thought you didn't want to play"
Elena: "I'm not playing anything... you're just cold and I'm trying to warm you"
Leah: "Of course you are"
Elena: "I feel warm"
She said and does that stupid cute thumb thing
Leah: "not very gentle of you"
She laughed.
Elena: „you're Just cold"
Leah: "stupid caring"
she said and turned around.
Elena: "Sleep well"
Leah: "You too"

Elena's POV
something about it feels wrong...
I don't know what it is but my heart is heavy.
Why does it feel wrong? it never felt wrong...
I let go and went back to my side of the bed.
I then quickly fell asleep and woke up early.
Leah was still asleep but I wanted to get out of here as quickly as possible so that yesterday wouldn't get weird.
I got ready, grabbed my phone and knocked on G and Beth's door.
After 3 minutes she opened the door.
Georgia: "Man, it's 6 in the morning, what do you want here?"
Elena: "Can I sleep on your couch?"
Georgia: "Not until you tell me why?"
Elena: "Is that really important?"
Georgia: "Yes, otherwise I wouldn't have asked"
Elena: "Me and Leah had a weird conversation yesterday and I don't want to see her"
Georgia: "Oh god come in"
I went in and of course Beth was completely asleep as always.
I quickly explained to Georgia what happened yesterday.
Georgia: "Dude, why are you giving her hope when you know you can't really feel anything anymore?"
Elena: "I still feel something... just not for Leah but for the memories with her"
Georgia: "Then tell her before she gets her hopes up and then you hurt her... that would affect the Team."
Elena: "I'm thinking about it"
Georgia: "Could the reason for your non-feelings is because you have feelings for someone else?"
I took a deep breath.
Elena: "Honestly...I have no idea what I'm feeling."
Georgia: "Okay let me rephrase...if you had to choose whether to kiss Leah or Ona who would it be?"
Elena: "nobody"
Georgia: "You have to"
Elena: "What no-"
Georgia: "Say it-"
Elena: "-Leah"
wow the first thought that came to mind was Leah.
Georgia: "Here we go"
Elena: "That was just a purely theoretical question"
Georgia: "But it would be Leah"
Elena: "Too much Leah...I'll just ignore her"
Georgia:,,ignore your feelings? No"
Elena: "I don't want to talk to her"
Georgia: "Sleep on it first"
Elena: "yeah right"
Georgia: "But you still have feelings, don't you?"
Elena: "I don't know"
Georgia: "How can you not know?"
Elena:,,I simply don't know. I don't know how to feel. I don't know why I should feel. I feel nothing but the past and it overwhelms me. I can't let it go."
Georgia: "Because you don't want to"
I rubbed my face.
Elena: "Of course I don't want to. I talked to her mother about our future, of course I don't want to let it go, I feel like I would betray myself by doing so."
Georgia: "Dude, you're in love with the past and with the idea of ​​what it would be like...but you're in the now, you're standing here...you're no longer in love with Leah but with the idea of ​​what it was like or what would have been if it had worked"
Elena: "Then let me go back"
I said in a broken voice.
Georgia: "No...the past is not the past for nothing...your words"
Elena: "Then fuck my words, I want to feel that again"
Georgia: "You can't"
she whispered.

Leah's POV
I woke up because I heard a door close.
I turned around and didn't see anyone else lying next to me.
I looked at the clock and it was fucking 6am.
What is she doing at 6am???
After waiting for 5 minutes I got dressed and looked for her.
I wanted to talk to her about yesterday anyway yk.
There was no light on in any room except Georgia's.
But Georgia is always awake early so it doesn't necessarily mean that Elena is in there.
I kept searching ,no trace.
I was on my way back to my room when I was about to give up looking when I heard two voices from Georgia's room.
Georgia: "Okay let me rephrase...if you had to choose whether to kiss Leah or Ona who would it be?"
Elena: "nobody"
Georgia: "You have to"
Elena: "What no-"
Georgia: "Say it-"
Elena: "-Leah"
So am I now an option?
I honestly don't know whether that's good or bad...