Just the way you are- Leah Williamson

wallpaper

Elena's POV
I woke up feeling like I had been asleep for ages.
I've already forgotten half of it.
Leah: "Good evening"
I rubbed my eyes
Elena: "What time is it?"
Leah: "Pretty late"
Luckily today is recovery day, which means it's not until 8 p.m. in the gym.
I looked at my phone. I still have Leah's favorite picture of us as a background. It was 6:55 p.m.

Leah's POV
She still has us as her wallpaper.
No matter what she said yesterday about letting go, she just can't do it.
Something so small proves that to me.
Leah: "Nice wallpaper"
She turned off her phone and threw it on the other side of the bed.
Elena: "no"
she said.
She got up and went out.

Elena's POV
I went out and by out I mean really out.
I was wearing a gray Nike sweater, short Nike pants, Nike socks and adilettes.
It was minus degrees outside but I didn't care.
First I went somewhere where no one could see me and puked out there. I swear to you, my esophagus hurt.
Then I went to the pharmacy and got something for it and some chewing gum because no matter where I am, I always have some chewing gum in my mouth.
I can release my stress there.
I then drove home and Leah stood in the floor and looked at me questionably.
Elena: ,,what? I was just at the pharmacy"
Leah: "I don't question anything about you anymore"
Beth and Viv cuddled on the couch while Katie just sat next to them.
They were watching a movie.

Katie: "Hey, come cuddle with me so I'm not so alone"
I looked at her and frowned.
Katie: "Come on for me"
I set my jaw and walked towards her.
I sat down next to her and she laid down with her head on my lap.
Leah always did that back then.
But now she just stood there.

Leah's POV
I could tell from her look that she remembered how we were lying back then.
I just know it.
I sat down next to her.
She was on her cell phone the whole time, texting someone.
I'm cool, completely relaxed.
Yes, okay, no.
I glanced over and saw that it was just Jacob.
Ahhhhhh.

Elena Pov
Elena: "Okay enough cuddling"
I got up and went to the kitchen.
I got out a glass.
Elena: "Does anyone want to toast with me?"
Beth: "On what?"
Elena: "I have no idea, just like that."
Viv: "That's not a good idea before training"

Leah's POV
She rolled her eyes and filled herself a glass of whiskey.
It's an Addiction.
When her mother died, she drank a lot.
Her father had an alcohol addiction, just like her mother......and just like her.
She was clean, I managed to break her of the habit.
But once you fall back into the pattern, all it takes is a few sips. The whole thing could look completely different.
Leah: "Can you make me a glass of water?"
She sat next to me and gave me the glass of water. As we clinked glasses, I took the glass of whiskey from her hand and replaced it with my water.
I stood up and tipped the glass of whiskey down the drain.
Beth, Viv and Katie laughed.
I sat back down.
Leah: "Enjoy it"
Elena: "Not funny"
she said dead serious.
Leah: "I'm not your enemy, I'll help you"
Elena: "I see"

Elena's POV
That was kind of sweet.
Leah: "Okay, once you've finished drinking we can go to training."
I rolled my eyes drank my water and we drove off.
Beth drove.
Katie: "Elena stop drinking, I want you to drive again"
Beth: "I'll kick you out right now"
Viv: "Admit that you found it better as a driver yourself"
Beth:,,......yeah okay true"

When I got to the gym I was doing my exercises as normal when Jana came to me.
Jana: "I'll help you"
Elena: "Very gentle of you but I don't need any help"
I said and stood up, I stood right in front of her and smiled at her.
Jana: "Stop looking like that..."
Elena: "I can help you"

Leah's POV
I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous.
I'm not jealous.
Okay, but it's me, deep down I feel jealousy.
Especially because my blood boils when I see Elena with her hands on her hips. The way Jana looks at her.
This tension between them, ughhhh I hate it.
Beth: "Hey mate, finally focus, what's going on?"
Leah: "Nothing"
Beth:,,......ughhh now I'll check it, someone is jealous of Jana"
Leah: "I'm not"
Beth: "And when I tell you that Elena is helping her even though she obviously doesn't need any help, I'm sure she likes the prospect."
I turned around.
I saw Elena from behind with her hands on her hips and whispering something in her ear.
Leah: "Do something"
Beth:,,why me? I think the two go together-"
Leah: Bethany! Now!"
Beth: "I hate you for this"
She went to the two of them.
I have no idea what she said, but Jana was now helping Beth with pull-ups.
And Elena came to me.
Elena: "Beth said you needed help"
Why is she so funny with Jana and so serious with me?
Jonas: "Okay ladies, you can go into the hot tub"
Elena: "Okay then no help"
I stood up, she looked into my eyes with those wonderful eyebrows.
She knows exactly what she's doing.
She looks at my lips and again in my eyes.
And it drives me crazy.
Elena: "Shall we go?"
Leah:,,mmh? Yes...."
We went and of course Jana arrived again.
Jana: "Do you know what's funny?"
Elena: "That you can't do a single pull-up?"
She said laughing
Jana pushed her.
Jana: "You weren't any better yourself"
Elena: "At least I can do one"
Jana: "Asshole"
She went under Jana's back of the knee and to her back and lifted her up.
Jana held onto her neck and laughed.
She always did that to me...
Elena: "What did you just call me?"
Jana: "Should I really say it again"
Elena: "No, otherwise I'll drop you"
She acted like she was going to drop Jana. And then put it back down.
I stopped and waited for Beth, Viv and Katie.
Katie: "Wow, they look close"
Leah: "Jana told me yesterday that she still has feelings for Elena"
Viv: "But I'm pretty sure Elena isn't for her"

Beth: "Why are you so sure, look at her, I see absolute sexual tension there"
Leah: "Guys please
Viv: what no? I see feelings on Jana's side, yes. But I only see sexual tension between Leah and her."
Katie: "That's true, Elena looks like she just wants to kiss Leah."
Beth: "True"
Viv: "Then shoot your shot Leah"
Leah: "What should I do?"
Beth: "Give her signs, sexual tension you know"
Leah: "I'm trying my best"

Elena's POV
I changed while everyone was in the whirlpool, I put on my hoodie, my shorts and my adilettes, got my chewing gum and went to the whirlpools to just keep my feet clean.
I ran towards it.
I sat on the edge.
Jana: "Where were you mate, I thought you were coming in with me."
Elena: "I don't feel like it"
I saw Leah and god damn.
Leah is always hot in a bikini.
She got into the water. In our whirlpool there were me, Jana, Leah, Beth, Viv and Katie.
I watched her get into the hot tub.
Yeah okay I admit I was staring.
I whispered in Jana's ear
Elena: "She looks hot"
Jana gave me a disgusted look and filled me with water.
Elena: "Hey, what was that for?"
Jana: "So that you can think clearly again"
Elena: "I think clearly"
Jana: "ugh Elena, look for a girlfriend with whom you can live out your sex fantasies."
Beth: "ugh now it's getting interesting Elena has sex fantasies"
Elena: "I didn't"
Jana: "It just sounded different"
Viv: "With who"
Elena: "Okay, I'm going"
Katie held me tight.
Katie: "Come on, we're all good friends, tell us"
Elena: "My two ex-partners are in here. I won't tell you anything about my sex life."
Viv: "Wait, how many times have you had?"
she said and pointed between me and Jana.
I shrugged my shoulders.
Jana: "I have no idea, but she's good"
I frowned.
Viv: "Okay enough, enough please, I have a headache"
Beth: "When was the last time?"
Elena: "ewww why would we say something like that?"
Jana: "Elena has become far too emotional, not so relaxed anymore"
Elena: "What, that's not true"
Jana: "Leah, you made her a softie"
I laughed and Leah smiled.
I looked at her, and then at her body because my sex fantasies summed up in one word are Leah.
I took a deep breath and rubbed my eyes.