I Accidentally Hit on my Crush's Brother (BL Series: 01)

Chapter 4

"Nagbreakfast ka na ba, Kuya Hiro?" he asked, peering into my unit before looking back at me with a smile. I simply shook my head in response to his question. "P'wede bang pumasok?" he added.

Hindi niya ba naaalala lahat ng nangyari kagabi? Or is he just pretending for my sake?

No! Whether he's pretending or not, I need to apologize. Right now, in this moment, it's all or nothing.

I have to apologize! I need to do it now!

Pero hindi ako makagalaw mula sa pwesto ko. I'm trying to find my voice, but it's as if I'm stunned into silence.

He gave me a quizzical look, furrowing his brow as he continued to gaze at me intently.

"U-Uh..." What the heck?! What happened to my voice? I didn't swallow cvm yesterday!

He sighed before slowly raising his hand as he approached me, causing me to step back slightly. He paused as I stepped back, but then he just smiled and reached out to ruffle my hair.

I blinked several times as I stared at his face. "Are you okay? Malala pa rin ba hangover mo?" he asked with concern, pressing his palm against my forehead. "Namumula ka, Kuya Hiro."

I was taken aback when his face suddenly got closer. In my reflex to respond, I inadvertently pushed him, causing him to fall down abruptly on the floor.

"Ah, s-sorry!" I quickly apologized, rushing to help him back up.

He laughed, then playfully messed up my hair again. "It's okay, Kuya Hiro. It's okay," he reassured me, a smile on his lips that seemed to convey that everything was going to be alright. There was no need to worry. Something along those lines.

I was just about to speak when he gestured to enter my unit. However, before he could step into the kitchen, he halted in his tracks.

"May gusto lang sana akong tanungin, Kuya Hiro," he said with a serious tone, causing my nerves to kick in.

"W-What?" I stammered, feeling increasingly anxious.

"Last night..." pagak itong natawa "...gano'n ka ba sa lahat tuwing nalalasing ka? I mean, asking for them to do 'that'," he asked. Seeing his face, guilt washed over me. He averted his gaze while forcing a smile. The disappointment was evident in his eyes.

Sh-t, this is the first time I've seen Kade like this. I really did something horrible to him; it's no wonder he's so disappointed in me right now.

After all, I touched him and even took his virginity. T-ngina mo talaga, Hiro.

"U-Uh, hindi..." I averted my eyes and started fiddling with my fingers. Hinding-hindi ko na 'ata kayang tingnan siya nang diretso. Masyado nang malala ang nararamdaman kong konsensya.

No matter how I replay the events in my mind, all I can understand is that I used him to fulfill my sexual urges, triggered by his resemblance to his older brother, Kace.

It's because of my love for Kace, Kade had nothing to do with it.

There's no way I didn't traumatize Kade.

"Totoo?" He asked again, this time with a serious expression.

I bit my lower lip and lowered my head. "H-Hindi nga, I mean... something bad happened yesterday, so I drank more alcohol than usual. I've never gotten so drunk that I acted like that in front of anyone." It felt like each word I spoke was sucking the air out of my lungs.

"Hmm." He uttered, his gaze still intense and serious.

"Y-You were..." I bit my lip harder and squeezed my eyes shut. "...the first one that happened with."