Just you and I

chapter 11: awkward

School is finally over although I didn't see Tucker nor Abby, which is probably a good thing in their case. I waited by Lucas's car for him to hurry up and unlock it to drive me home.

All I want to do is cry into my pillow and snuggle with my cat. Lucas finally comes out of the buildings and he looks worried. He unlocks the car and we both get in but silence fills the atmosphere.

I want to ask what is wrong, but at the same time I don't want to bother him when he's like this. Not that it would do me any good, he's in his own little world right now. Probably worrying about something stupid, like usual.

Although what if Abby sent him the same voicemail or messages she sent me? No she wouldn’t do that to him even if she did hate me somewhere in her deep cold heart she loved lucas. I’m still contemplating whether or not to break the silence.

So far I have no good reason other than to see if he's okay. Fuck it, what's the worse that can happen.

“Did something happen?” I ask

“What?” he asks

“Did something happen?” I ask again annoyed I have to repeat myself

“Yeah” he says quietly

“What?” I ask curiously

“Don’t worry about it” he says with a scowl

“I’m gonna worry because I care about you” I say

“Well don’t” he says

“Well I do, so get over it” I say now getting irritated

Lucas grips the wheel to the car a little too hard and he seems like he's going to say something but hesitates. The silence is killing me at this point but I don’t want him to get mad right now, especially when he is driving.

Surprisingly though he lets me stay the night again and we both pile in the house and plop ourselves on the couch. We don’t say anything. We just sat there in silence until his mom comes home.