Just you and I

chapter 14: interruption

*ring*

*Ring*

And that's how the moment got ruined I was about to kiss him and his phone started ringing and guess who it was Abby. 

Maybe this is a sign that I should not go for it but at the same time I am deeply disappointed I really wanted to kiss him, but maybe they will be other chances and that again maybe not. 

I still have to remember that I'm the only one that knows that Abby and Tucker did anything and Lucas is in the dark right now. 

"We should probably head back to your place, it's getting pretty dark" I say with a smile

"Yeah probably, here let me help you off" Lucas says well jumping off the slide

He reaches for me and I go towards him to jump in his arms. He grabbed my waist and brings me safely to the ground. He lets go, but I don't want him to.

We start walking back to his place and it's quiet again, I can feel the silence and usually and your  not supposed to feel that kind of thing, then again what am I supposed to feel?

I feel angry and sad about what Tucker and Abby did and how they treated both me and Lucas, but at the same time I'm glad.

Truth be told, I was really hoping Tucker would break up with me because I just know it wasn't right between us. Something just wasn't there after the accident.

I still get flashbacks, although  it's also hard to forget the time you almost die.

Anyway what I mean though is I'm happy, not only do I not have to talk to Tucker anymore, but now I have more of a chance of having Lucas out of myself.

And I don't mean that in the stalker crazy love girl thing either.

I mean it I'm deeply in love with this person and I can't express how I feel until, I know for sure you are out of relationship because I want to respect your boundaries kind of thing.

There I go again, over explaining things in my head, I hate being an overthinker.

I think about the many ways I could get into trouble or an accident again to where I'm either severely injured or die.

Some call that crazy,  some would also call that a cry out for suicide, but I'm okay.

I'm still here. I have no reason to be sad.  I have the perfect life a good family, good parents, no abuse, I don't do drugs, and I only drink occasionally. Plus I have one really good friend.

What more could I want?
Well that is a dumb question considering the one thing I want I don't have yet key word though, yet.