And Always.

Chapter 5

(Consequences By Camila Cabello)

Harley's Pov

The crowd cheered as I stood there in a red sparkly top, with a red sparkly skirt, and matching heels. I looked out at everyone, as they continued to cheer. Not stopping which caused a smile to appear on my face.

I looked over at the camera that was filming me, and I smiled. I couldn't believe out of all of the pain, this is where I am. I've never wanted anything more. I walked over, and sat down at the piano, starting to hit the cords for the next song. I looked out into the crowd, and imagined how my dad would feel at this moment.

"Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating." I cringed at the lyrics.

My dad  would be beyond proud of me and the boys for making it this far. He would be proud of Yomar for giving everything up and creating our band, he would be proud of Abu for constantly making sure we were all in check, he would be proud of Dlo for always being that carefree person.

I would like to think that he would be beyond proud of how far i've come, even though i've given up everything, and i had to lose everything i gained.

"Loving you was young, and wild, and free." I looked down at the piano, feeling the tears start to fill up my eyes. I was so much younger than I am now, when I met him. I'm 24 now. I met him when I was 19. I got to be a wild child, and I got to have a taste of actual freedom before it was ripped away from me.

"Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet." Nicholas was the fire to my ice. When the rest of the world was in black and white, we were in screaming red and blue. And as I looked down at the color red that filled my body, I couldn't help but miss him.

"Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound." I finally was able to be myself with Nick, and I always felt so safe doing so. He was my safety net, he was my person, I could always go to him for anything, and he would drop everything to be there and help me.

"A steady place to let my defenses down." I finally let down my walls. He let me feel comfortable enough to let my walls down, and be the best version of myself that he created. Then we got signed, and my walls went back up, and I never wish I had to go through that pain ever again.

"But loving you had consequences." The tears fell from my eyes, and my voice got shaky. I looked behind me, at Abu, who panicked. He didn't know what to do. Yomar rushed over and sat on the outside of me, shielding me from the cameras and the fans, as he took over playing the piano.

The curtains started to close early, which caused everyone to be confused. Yomar slowed down the piano and stopped once the curtain was closed all of the way. I rubbed my hands down my face, in hopes of making myself stop crying. Nothing ever worked.

"What the hell are you doing?" Kevin's voice filled my ears, while he walked across the stage, finally stopping in front of us.

"You are embarrassing my reputation!" He slammed his hands down on the piano, and I made no move to yell back, or let him belittle me. All I cared about was Nicholas Armstrong, and how much of a mess I became without him.

"Shut up, Kevin!" Yomar screamed, standing up, getting in between Kevin and I.

Everyone went quiet. The only noise you could hear was the sound of people talking, and leaving the stadium. Dlo hopped down off of his drum set and sat next to me, throwing his arm around me, while I cried.